Hi. I'm not going to be a jerk to you, though I have every reason to do so. I'm not going to call you names. You know everything you have done to me, and how it has effected me. But, I need to put it into words for myself and for others so that they don't make the same mistakes that I made.
I trusted you. I trusted that you respected me, my relationship, my sexuality, and my values. I was wrong. You didn't respect me at all and assumed that I was just an object for your use. You used me. You used me in every way imaginable.
It took me a while to realize what a negative effect you had in my life and I didn't feel like myself again until I completely cut you out of my life. You were damaging me from the inside out. You started off emotionally manipulative, guilting me into hanging out with you all the time, then it turned into physical manipulation. And that's where I cut you out of my life.
You were destroying my relationship with my girlfriend and my relationship with myself. I didn't realize what you were doing to me until it was ALMOST too late. But I came to my senses, realized what a terrible influence you were to my life, and cut you out of it. You almost destroyed my relationship with the most beautiful, amazing girl I have ever been fortunate enough to meet.
Both my girlfriend and my friends didn't like you from the moment they met or saw you. They saw the warning signs, but I did not. I never thought this would happen to me. All the warning signs were there: manipulation to hang out, trying to touch me when I made it very clear that I was not okay with that, and you even went so far as to kiss me without my consent to do so. You took advantage of my vulnerability when I wasn't in a good mental place, and took advantage of me when I had my guard down. I didn't let you think that what you did was okay, but I think that even though you recognized that your actions weren't okay, you are at least a little bit proud of yourself. That is sad, and that's the problem.
Why are you proud of yourself for taking advantage of me? You are representing everything I don't want to be and you are exactly the kind of person I don't want or need in my life. As a final goodbye, I am writing this to you. I'm not saying I forgive you, but I hope you change. I hope you recognize all the flaws in your character and work to fix them. I hope you look back on the mistakes you made and learn from them. Please don't do this to another girl. No one deserves to go through that.
