To the boy who ruined my view on relationships,

I loved you, but you didn't love me. You said you did and I believed it every time. You knew exactly what to say and do to get what you wanted, and when it wasn't going quit as you planned you looked elsewhere. I told you in the beginning that if you weren't happy then leave. But you didn't. You led me on for a couple of years. While I stayed faithful and tried to make you happy, you were making other girls happy. After you, I was scared to date again. I was scared to love again.

I loved you. I still do, even though I shouldn't. I miss you, but I would never be with you again. You hurt me and told everyone I was the one who did you wrong. But that's ok because I know I didn't.

It's taken two years for me to be able to want a relationship again. I've talked to a few guys but I ended up pushing them away because I was scared of getting lied to and hurt again.

Even after everything you did, I found someone who makes me happy. It's been hard to trust him but I do. So far he's treated me better than you ever did. He respects me. You didn't. You wanted sex. With him it's never been brought up because that's not all he wants. When I was upset you never cared. He knows when something's wrong before I even know myself.

I'm not saying you're a bad guy, you've just made bad decisions. And that's ok, we all do. My bad decision was trusting you and loving you.

But thanks to you I missed all the pointless relationships and found my best friend. I've prayed for an amazing guy to come into my life at the right time and I thank God everyday for putting my handsome man in my life.

Thank you for doing me wrong, because if you hadn't I would have never found my best friend. I love him so much. And I wish you the best. I hope you're happy with your life right now.