Dear friends,
Hey there, glad you’re reading this, cause it’s something I’ve been meaning to say for quite a while. College has been weird, huh? It’s been more work, more to keep track of. The environment is electric, tumultuous, and intimidating. Everything feels like it’s happening at once, and that once was due yesterday. I barely took my midterms last week (at the time of writing this) and next week I’m getting my roommate decision for next year. I’m barely keeping up with what’s going on next week and now I’m thinking about next year? Jeez. Then there I am, in the middle of this tornado, gripping at air.
Gone are the spur of the moment decisions to get together to try and make music which ends up in watching TRON. The random pop-up’s at your house to say hi when I’m nearby are not as easy when we’re in different states. Our worlds are no longer just Long Island anymore. Random texts to get everyone together to play soccer on the neighborhood pitch get complicated when it involves scheduling a cross country flight. Through all this, I understand technologies can close distances, but however it’s hard to keep that up when sometimes I forget to feed myself. It speaks volumes to the situation when I have to keep two to-do lists and even then things slip through the cracks. This doesn't mean that you’re insignificant and small to me, it just means that the cracks are huge.
Things may be tough now, but trust me when I say that our time will return. The cold communication cut of now will absolutely thaw. Summer is coming and we shall find our way together again. Simple things such as star gazing at the lighthouse will come again. The get-togethers around a bonfire will return. Summer is coming and we will catch up on all that’s happened. Our time will come and we will get back to where we were, with an even fresher perspective on things.
Despite all this, I do not excuse how things have happened this year. I’m really sorry, no matter if you believe me or not. I’m trying to make things work and expand my horizons, and I still have a long ways to go.
Much Love,
SR
