We have all had those friends who you think will always be there for you. You think that nothing could ever come between you and them. You are inseparable and cannot see yourself sharing those same secrets to another person. You might text every day, all day or you might hangout 24/7. You might schedule all your classes together so you are not separated. You are soul mates that are destined to be life long friends, but as we all know, it does not always happen that way.
Recently, I had some friends slip away from me. I thought long and hard about why it happened, what could have stopped it, and why things changed so suddenly. I realized that some things are not meant to be. Some things happen for a reason and are better to be left alone. Some friends are only buffers to the real friends that are going to come into your life. Some friends are meant to show you that you deserve to be treated a lot better than that. Some friends are there to show you tough love and that the people, who you thought would always be there, aren’t always there.
Friendship is a weird relationship. It is bonding through having the same classes or liking the same band, but once that class is done or you have a new favorite band, some of those friends are lost with that. Some friends are just plain bad for you. You do not see the darkness that they bring into your life until they are already gone. You can’t understand why your mother hates them or tries to steer you away from them until that last day; that last big fight. You are blinded by the filth that they flooded into your mind. Some friends that you could consider once as your best friends are really the worst friends you ever had. They changed at the drop of a hat because you didn’t want to be out at a party or you didn’t want to have the same bad habits as they have. Some friends changed because you had better grades or had more friends. But that’s not what friendship is about. Friendship is about acting like lunatics and laughing until you cry. It’s about having a shoulder to lean on and friends to turn to when it feels like the world is against you.
So dear friends that I have lost, I am glad that we had our time together but I don’t need you anymore. Thanks for the memories that will soon fade away because they weren’t all that great in the first place. I have other true friends that listen to me, give me advice, and actually care for me in ways you couldn’t. I was sad at the beginning of our break, but I am stronger now. I am stronger because of you. I was devastated to get rid of you, but it was needed. I am better off without the constant drama and aggravation. I am much, much happier without you. I always knew this day would come with you, but I did not think that it would end the way that it did.
Thanks for showing me that I am so much more than that.
