Many people come and go throughout life, many are meant to stay, and many come along to teach you a lesson. I have learned many lessons in life and that is to never let a person come and go as they please, because if they come and go as they please they are not meant to be in your life anyway. This includes family as well. Family is supposed to mean everything to a person, and family should always come first. But this is not exactly true. Family can betray you, hurt you, and leave you with no explanation as to why. Then throughout the years you wonder what you did to make them leave, but in reality you didn’t make them leave they made that choice on their own.
As we grow up we realize that family is not everything although we would like it to be. As children we don’t understand why families argue and don’t get a long, we just like that we have people to be around to keep us entertained. Well in a family like mine immediate family is all you can really count on
Many families grow up with cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents. Well you see for me it was like that in the beginning, just for the first maybe 8 or 9 years of my life. Then all of sudden they disappear. They stop coming around, stop calling, stop sending Christmas cards. It all just stops. And as a child you are not sure why, but all you really know is that you miss them and wish they would come back, and you wish they would have never left.
When you left me I no longer had a best friend, cousin, someone to take me ice skating, or to play land. No one to hug me when I was sad or to talk to when no one else was there for me. No one to share stories with and no one to eat pistachio peanuts with. No one to crack my toes and keep me laughing. No one to ensure me that I was an amazing girl who was going to do great things in life.
I wish you were here so I could tell you all of the great things that I have done. But then when I think about all of the great things I have done; I think to myself I don’t want to tell you anyway because you obviously don’t care enough to want to know. I can’t remember when the last time was that I actually heard your voice or spoke your name. I can’t say I will not ever forgive you but I can say you have missed out on a big portion of my life and unfortunately I thank you for that.
Without you leaving me I would have never learned that people are not meant to stay in our live and that family is not all that we make it out to be. Yes, I do miss you and I always will.
P.S. I Love You
