“That voice that talks badly to you is a demon voice. This very patient and determined demon shows up in your bedroom one day, and refuses to leave. You are six or twelve or fifteen and you look in the mirror and hear a voice so awful and mean that it takes your breath away. It tells you that you are fat and ugly and you don’t deserve love. And the scary part is the demon is your own voice.” Amy Poehler, Yes Please.
Like Amy Poehler, I’ve experienced this well-known “demon voice”. It comes one day and for many of us it never leaves. It may come at the worst of times, or even the best, it may start early in the day or late at night. Telling us we aren’t good enough, or aren’t worthy of what we deserve in life, making life a little bit harder to live.
Why does it come? I wish I had the answer, because the demon that comes destroys you from the inside out without warning or forgiveness. And can even tear down others around us.
While the demon may be patient, don’t let it win. Continue to work on yourself and do what you love. Don’t let it interfere with falling in love, or improving your body the way you want it. Because sometimes it will creep up when you least expect it, and tear down what you’ve been working on. Demons inside my head you will not win, you have had your times where you have destroyed who I am, and where I’ve gotten. Not again, I will continue to fight for this life I deserve.
I will continue to shut you out with my actions, as they speak louder than any words you put in my head. I will continue to seek out help if you tear me down to the point where I can’t bring myself out of it. And I wish push you out of the mirror each time I stand in front of it.
You will not win, I’ve worked too hard to be where I am, to let nonsense words interfere in my head.
I will continue to surround myself with people who see more worth in me, than often I see in myself. And I won’t let others talk badly about me, as the demons so often do in the worst of times. Go pick on someone your own size, because I’m bigger than any downfall you have to put on me.
Don’t bother with coming around anytime soon demons, because I’ve worked up an army to take you out, as fast as you came in. While you appear to be a shiny distraction to feel bad for myself, I know in the long run you are as pathetic as others who put me down.
“Sticking up for ourselves in the same way we would one of our friends is a hard but satisfying thing to do. Sometimes it works. Even demons have to sleep.” -Amy Poehler
