First of all, thank you. Because of your rejection, I learned so many valuable things that I needed to know about myself and about life in general. Thank you for helping me realize my self-worth and independence. Thank you for helping me realize that I deserve better.
You turning me down had nothing to do with me. Looking back on it, I thought it was my fault. I felt like I wasn't good enough. You led me on for so long, making me assume that all of the feelings were mutual. Now I know that your own insecurities are what were holding you back, but that didn't make it any easier. No is still no and a broken heart is still a broken heart.
It took a lot for me to work up the courage to share my feelings with you. A lot. If I would've known the outcome, I never would've said the things I said. I never would've opened up and poured out my heart to you. But I didn't know and I did say all of those things. I'm thankful for that. I put everything out in the open and took a risk. That's something I had never done before. It may not have ended the way I hoped, but at least now I know. I did something you couldn't and still can't do. I was 100% honest. All you do is play games.
What hurt me the most was realizing that the idea I had in my head wasn't ever going to be reality. Everyone thought we were perfect for each other, and I was so convinced that they were right. We had so much in common and were basically the same person in so many ways. Turns out, you weren't as perfect as I thought you were. You were just a boy who cared too much about what people think. You were just a boy who couldn't see what he could've had right in front of him. You had so many obvious opportunities to step up and take, but you wouldn't even try.
It took me a while to move on, but I'm so glad I did. Now I know exactly what I don't want and what I deserve. I deserve someone who is honest and someone who doesn't play games with my feelings. I deserve someone who pursues me and doesn't make me second guess everything I say. I am worth so much more than your opinion of me. You're the one who missed out on an awesome girl who would've done anything for you.
Again, thank you for saying no. It made me a much stronger person and I'm better for it. I couldn't see it then, but you weren't the one for me. It took a broken heart to realize that, but it's exactly what I needed and I'm thankful it happened.
Maybe one day you'll realize the mistake you made, but don't expect me to be waiting for you.
