Falling in love is easy, but loving the right person is hard.

How do you even know if they are the right person?

Is there a right person?

I do not know but I know I thought you were.

I have learned that boys are usually the last to commit. Getting a boy to commit is a huge step. But as far as I am concerned, I am always the last person to commit. When I first met you, I never thought there would be anything between us. I never saw you as more than a friend but the more we talked the more I realized you could be what I wanted you to be. I looked for every reason to walk away but with you it was different. I could not find a reason to walk away. You were easy to be around. You were goofy and maybe a little bit weird but I embraced it. You could say to littlest thing but somehow always got me to crack a smile. It was a friendship I did not want to end.

You were easy to have a conversation with. There was always something to talk about and there is not a thing I wouldn’t talk about with you. The times of silence were something I did not fear. You made me feel comfortable. You genuinely wanted to know me and my heart ate that up.

You are far from a bad person. There are some things I have questioned but something about you gives me hope. We wanted different things and that is okay. I appreciate your friendship. I appreciate your honesty. Commitment is not easy so you took the easy way out. Sometimes I wonder what was going through your head

Were you scared?

Did it go too fast?

Maybe you were just so unsure of what you wanted and I understand.

I do not regret you, I regret wasting my time. I regret letting you make me feel unloveable even for one second, but I also thank you. Thank you for reminding me to not give my heart out so fast. Thank you for not holding back and for always being honest with me. One day, when you mature, I know you will find exactly what you are looking for and make some girl happy.