To be honest, I didn't really know what to write about this week, especially after the week we had. Yet, all I could think about was you and how much you mean to me. I know I tell you a lot but I don't feel like I tell you enough, you're amazing, handsome, loved, cared for and how much I love you. For the past year, you and I have been through a lot and I don't think I would ever change it because looking back, I am completely different then than I am now. I was just a girl who wanted to do whatever she wanted and to hell with what everyone else thought. I was someone who knew God had a plan for her but didn't think you would ever be apart of it.
I cannot ever express to you how much you mean to me and how I never want to lose you. There were many times that I did but yet here we are nine months and three days later. Some say that they never thought that we would make it and it was a lost cause. We showed them! However, I can't say that I did not agree with them for awhile. There have been times that I wanted to throw in the towel and say "catch ya later" but I clearly did not. I never did it because something always told me that you were a boomerang that was just bound to come back.
Those times you needed space, I never realized how I needed space also. Time to think about us, school, our future and to get my priorities straight. I always told myself that I would never go back to you after those breaks and even though we weren't officially together, it felt as though we broke up every time. Yet your reasons and your apologies made me love you even more. Because you never just did it for you but you were just protecting me. Not many guys can do that.
As I sit here and type this out, I'm starting to tear up because all I keep saying in my head is "Thank you, God." I never thought that a study abroad trip to London would turn into finding the man that God designed for me. Thinking back to where we started to where we are now, I am not the only one who has changed. You went from someone who didn't think they had much of a future to someone who is making a future with me. You went from believing in nothing to believing in something that was much greater than you and I. Being in a long distance relationship is by far the hardest yet best thing I have ever done. I am so glad that I get to do it with you. I pray for you daily and hope you realize that God does have this amazing plan for you, I'm just along for the ride. We have a race to run together as we continue to encourage one another, be there for one another and just live life together. I'm ready if you are.
I love you.
Therefore, if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage. - Philippians 2:1-6
