To the boy who didn’t see my worth,
We haven’t talked in awhile, and sometimes I wonder if you miss me. Sometimes I’ll see something you would like or hear one of our inside jokes and just for a moment I’ll wonder what it’d be like to tell you. And then I remember all the things you put me through, and that feeling goes away.
I remember when I first found out you cheated on me. I didn't believe it. I didn't believe that someone that claimed to love me could do something so awful. You claimed you loved me, but you don't do that to someone you love.
It scares me how well you manipulated the situation to make yourself the victim and I just pray that whoever you find next doesn’t fall to the same tricks I did. I hope that no one ever has to go through what you put me through.
I don’t think you understand how much you hurt me or the complete gravity of your actions. I guess you never will. You made me believe that I wasn’t enough and you made me believe I was the problem. The sad thing is I still wanted forever with you, and I would have never done anything to jeopardize that. Obviously you didn’t feel the same. I saw the best in you and you took advantage of that.
I don’t hate you. I loved you once and a part of me will always care about you. I miss our friendship, but I don’t miss you. I don’t miss how you manipulated me; I don’t miss the lies and the way you didn’t respect me. I don’t miss being cheated on or being afraid of you every time you got angry with me. I’m sorry that you didn’t see my worth and I’m sorry you lost the girl who would have done anything to make you happy.
Thank you for teaching me that I deserve better. Somehow, by treating me like crap I learned in the midst of that I’m worth more and I deserve so much more. Most importantly you taught me what love is not, that love does not manipulate, love does not cause pain and love does not lie.
I don't understand why you did what you did, but I'm letting you go. You may have hurt me, but you didn’t defeat me. I’m at peace with what happened. I’m glad I found out who you really are sooner rather than later. Thank you for the lessons you taught me, however painful it was, everything you did made me stronger and brought me closer to Christ. I forgive you and I hope you get all those things you dreamed of.
From, the girl who deserves better.
