I don’t really remember the day we first met, but I remember the year we became best friends. We were sitting in class and we found a similar love for a certain boy band. That was all I needed in a best friend. We soon began talking up a storm every day in class about how Niall was your favorite and Zayn was mine. We talked very frequently about how we would each be married to our favorites, be each other's maids of honor and be the best of friends forever.
I remember my senior year when I fell so hard for a boy, and you showed me that it was okay to feel the way I did. You were also there for me when he broke my heart the following summer. You’ve been my shoulder to cry on as I have for you. That’ll never ever change.
I see your posts on Instagram and Facebook, your tweets, your stories on Snapchat...I’m never in them anymore. We never hang out anymore, but I know you’re happy and having a great time with your life so it’s okay. You know I’m happy, so no matter what, we’re okay. We live for each other to be happy and that’s what true best friends do after all, right?
You have a boyfriend now, and I really can’t tell you how happy you look and how happy seeing you like this makes me. Before him, I had only seen you this happy when we would blast songs from High School Musical, Camp Rock, or even Hannah Montana. It makes me so happy to see you smile so much, even if it’s without me. I miss you so much, though. I miss our Saturday nights together at the diner and Dunkin Donuts until late at night. I miss being able to see you every single day. I miss being in class with you. And I know we don’t talk much anymore, but when we’re together I can tell you’ve missed me too.
I know it might have seemed like I’ve been frustrated and angry with you. I know that I took out my anger on you before when we first started losing touch. You were still there for me. You still are there for me. I just got jealous because you were no longer spending all of your free time with me. You were growing up and I didn't want you to. But we both are. We're both out living our lives to the fullest and that's such an amazing thing to think about.
That fantasy about being married to Zayn and Niall may not have become a reality, and obviously never will, but us being friends forever is far from fiction. And you'll obviously be my maid of honor. You’re the best friend I could have ever asked for and I really do not know where I would be in this world, without you today.
Thank you,
Your best friend
