To My Dear Grandpa

To My Dear Grandpa, A Year After His Death

It's been nearly a year, and I miss you with all of my heart.


Since the day I was born, you were supportive of my decisions and always carried a smile on your face. When I would go to you and Grandma's house or see you at the family events, you would spread a feeling of joy and peacefulness.

Your funeral was the day before I left for my freshman year of college.

I've always been good at concealing my emotions due to disliking others seeing me cry, but as soon as the funeral started, the tears quickly began falling. There were songs sung by your family members in honor of you, and there were beautiful speeches dedicated to you. Even the lunch in the building across the street was filled with stories of your lifetime. It was a sad event, but also a beautiful one in a way because I got to see how many people loved you and who all were impacted by you.

Unfortunately, we never got to do the more well-known activities together such as play catch, but that didn't mean we didn't get to do anything fun. I remember when I was just a little girl and you took the time out of your day to make a fairy wand out of wood. Or just a few years ago when my sister, parents, you, and I were all playing battleship and we were cracking up because you couldn't clearly hear what we were saying, so if we said D11, you would ask if we said E5. Or when you and the other adults would play some card games before dinner at our family Christmases and Thanksgivings.

In the end, you were the best Grandpa I could have had. Everyone loved you then, and they still do. I know that even to this day, you are watching over me and the rest of your family and friends from heaven.

Popular Right Now

To The Dad Who Didn't Want Me, It's Mutual Now

Thank you for leaving me because I am happy.

Thank you, for leaving me.

Thank you, for leaving me when I was little.

Thank you, for not putting me through the pain of watching you leave.

Thank you, for leaving me with the best mother a daughter could ask for.

I no longer resent you. I no longer feel anger towards you. I wondered for so long who I was. I thought that because I didn't know half of my blood that I was somehow missing something. I thought that who you were defined me. I was wrong. I am my own person. I am strong and capable and you have nothing to do with that. So thank you for leaving me.

In my most vulnerable of times, I struggled with the fact that you didn't want me. You could have watched me grow into the person that I have become, but you didn't. You had a choice to be in my life. I thought that the fact that my own father didn't want me spoke to my own worth. I was wrong. I am so worthy. I am deserving, and you have nothing to do with that. So thank you for leaving me.

You have missed so much. From my first dance to my first day of college, and you'll continue to miss everything. You won't see me graduate, you won't walk me down the aisle, and you won't get to see me follow my dreams. You'll never get that back, but I don't care anymore. What I have been through, and the struggles that I have faced have brought me to where I am today, and I can't complain. I go to a beautiful school, I have the best of friends, I have an amazing family, and that's all I really need.

Whoever you are, I hope you read this. I hope you understand that you have missed out on one of the best opportunities in your life. I could've been your daughter. I could have been your little girl. Now I am neither, nor will I ever be.

So thank you for leaving me because I am happy. I understand my self-worth, and I understand that you don't define me. You have made me stronger. You have helped make me who I am without even knowing it.

So, thank you for leaving me.

Cover Image Credit: Pexels

Related Content

Connect with a generation
of new voices.

We are students, thinkers, influencers, and communities sharing our ideas with the world. Join our platform to create and discover content that actually matters to you.

Learn more Start Creating

9 Reasons Your Grandparents Are The Best Gifts You'll Ever Receive

They love us unconditionally and are always there to lend a helping hand.


Grandparents are special. They are the leaders and foundations of our families. They love us unconditionally and are always there to lend a helping hand. The spoil us way too often! My grandparents mean the world to me. The picture above is one of my favorite photos with both my mother and my grandfather when I was a little girl. They are some of the best people in my life and have always set a good example for me. Cherish them while you can because they won't always be around! Here are nine reasons your grandparents are the best gifts you'll ever receive!

1. They give the best advice.

2. They have a lot of life experience and are willing to share it with you.

3. Their smile makes your heart warm.

4. They are so intelligent.

5. They have the best stories to share.

6. They are a great example of love.

7. Their hugs are like no other.

8. They spoil their grandchildren.

9. They love you unconditionally.

Related Content

Facebook Comments