Before you think "Wow, WHAT A CRAPPY FRIEND,"

Let me explain....

To someone I thought I would have standing by me on my wedding day. To someone that I was always there for and would drop everything for and vise versa. I think the only person who knew you better than me was you, your family, and God. I thought what I was doing was looking out for you. I thought, by being honest, it would help you out in the long run and save you from getting hurt. Because let's all be honest, seeing your best friend get hurt by a guy makes you turn into a "Best Friend Mom" that you didn't even know existed.

I miss our road trips and late nights where we had not one care in the world; Driving to Tallahassee and Orlando that was literally only planned for the night in advance. I miss being able to just yell and cry and you wouldn't care because you understood what I was going through, whether if it be school, boys, or life in general. That all changed though. It all changed when I thought I was doing the right thing for you, but you made it clear that you didn't need my help.

I've been hurt by a guy like this before and the last thing I wanted was for you to get hurt like I did. I know my two cents isn't always needed and I will forever apologize for that. You have to understand that everything I said about this guy and everything I did was purely out of love.

Everybody said I shouldn't have to beg for someone to be in my life. They all said that, "if she really wanted to be in your life, she would make the effort". I felt like I was getting relationship advice for my boyfriend. I think any girl would agree with me that when you argue with your best friend, it's just as worse as arguing with your boyfriend.

I valued our friendship, but everybody is right, I shouldn't have to beg for someone to forgive me when I was simply trying my best to look out for someone I cared about. Do I feel betrayed? Do I feel unappreciative? Of course, a little bit, but that doesn't mean I'll stop being here for you. It just means that I'm old enough to realize who is really going to be there for me in the long run no matter how many times I mess up or can't admit I'm wrong. I hope you never forget that if you ever need me all you have to do is pick up the phone and I'll be on the other side.