To the person that left,

I have always been told that people get placed in our lives for a reason. Cliche, I know. Yet, there is a reason for everything but here I am still struggling to find the reason behind why you chose to leave. People have come and gone in my life for as long as I could remember and I was always so proud to tell the world that you had stayed, I was so proud to tell the whole world, my world, of all your accomplishments. I was so proud to tell them that you beat the odds and you had proved me wrong but you didn’t. You left.

The hardest thing I have ever had to do is lose someone. You are dead to me. It’s not a death that is easy to handle. It is not a death were we are blessed to just go sit at a grave site and grieve in front of a piece of concrete and talk to you in peace. It is a death where you are still alive and I am the one that has died on the inside. It is knowing that you are dead to me but I have to pass you every day and you are still smiling, you are still laughing and you are still living. That’s the hard part. We are strangers. Two people that know each other better than their own parents, their own family and we are strangers. You did this. This one is on you, not me. When you chose to leave me, part of me went with you and I will not be the same. I can't let myself be the same because if I do, I will lose everything I have fought so hard to gain. I will chose to be stronger, I will choose to move on from this and not let this define me.

Today, I chose me.

I know that you will not be back, that doesn’t mean that I will forget you. The impact you had on me is one that changed my life forever. You are the reason I am where I am today, so thank you for that. You are the reason I know how to love, how to stand up for myself, how to handle distance and the reason that I have stayed where I am. Once again, thank you.

I will never forget you. Just because you left, it doesn’t mean that I will no longer still care. Just because I haven’t reached out to you, doesn’t mean that you aren’t on my mind daily. I remember it all, even the little things. Remember when we had our future planned? Only because we knew that distance bothered us. I still care, I still love you with everything I have left in me to love with. I will still check up on you, you just won't know it. I will still cheer for you and I will always be your biggest fan, even if you never see it.

Lastly, I know that things are very different, they will never be the same again for either of us and I need you to know a few things, I’m still here being one. No matter what time, the situation or where I am at, I am just a phone call away, except I won't answer because that is what it feels like to be the only one fighting. That is what it feels like to be the only one that knows how to use a phone. It seems like you always forgot that a phone worked both ways. So, always remember for future references, THE PHONE WORKS BOTH WAYS!! You always struggled with that but it's okay. The other thing is, no matter where you go, please know that I am praying for you and I love you still. I love you so much that it hurts. I miss your presence, I miss your calls, your snap chats, and I even miss arguing with you. I miss you being my best friend. So promise me that you will remember how to fight for what you want in the next friendship you gain. Promise me that you won't let the little things push you away. So here is to the person that decided to go, to the person that I thought would never go, I wish you the best. Good luck on all that you do and no matter where you go never forget how much I love you.

Sincerely,

The person that tried to stay...