Hi, my name is Julianna and I am your daughter.

I understand why you gave me away. I promise I'm not just saying that. I really get it.

You were either 15 or 16 when I was born. I wouldn't want to be a parent then either. I hope that your decision was yours to make and that it wasn't easy. It would be nice to know a little part of you considered keeping me.

Is your life better because you gave me away?

You're well into your thirties now.

Do you have a family?

Are you happy?

If you are happy, I'm glad you gave me away.

You deserve a happy life.

I'm happy.

I think about you a lot, though.

What our lives would be like if we were together, where we would live, what kind of person I could've been...all kinds of things.

Do you ever think about me and what your life could've been if I was in it?

Is it hard to think about me?

Do you at all?

I won't be offended if not. I understand.

I want you to know that I look a lot like my adoptive parents. I constantly have people telling me how much like I look like Lisa and Bobby. We're all pale with blue/green eyes. Everyone says that "it was part of God's plan." And I agree.

But still, I wonder, do I look anything like you?

Do I look anything like my biological father?

We laugh because my brother, who is also adopted, looks nothing like my parents and me: he's tan with dark hair and brown eyes. He is "obviously" the adopted kid.

Throughout my life, I have wondered what it would be like to meet you. What I would say to you, what you would say to me...would we cry? Would I be what you expected and vice versa?

I still think about what it would be like to know you.

Sometimes I think about tracking you down to see if you ever think about meeting me. If you don't want to meet me, I can't say I wouldn't be upset, but I would understand. I'm not entirely sure how I would feel about meeting you.

What if I reach out to you and you reject me?

Is it worth risking rejection to maybe have an okay relationship with you?

What if you don't reject me, we meet and then neither of us are what the other expected?

I have no idea what I expect from asking these questions. I don't look for any sort of answer, but if you're reading this, hello.

I don't have much else to say.

Julianna