Hello, it's me,
I know it’s been a while since you’ve seen, or let alone heard from me - 19 years. You're probably wondering, "Where did all that time go?" I don’t know if you’ll ever read this, and I'm sorry that it’s not written in Chinese. Hey, maybe you've learned how to read and write in English now! I don’t know a thing about you but let me tell you a few things you might not know about me.
I live in a nice house in the state of Pennsylvania in the United States. My family is great and I couldn’t be more thankful to be a part of their life. They’ve been so supportive of me in my various activities (which included 10 years of learning Mandarin!) through the years and made sure I’d have the best education possible. After all, that’s what you would’ve wanted.
At first, when my parents told me I was adopted, a wave of anger rushed over me. “Why?” I thought, “Was I thrown away like garbage?” But as I got older, the emotion of anger was replaced with pure curiosity. “What did you look like?” “Where did you live” and the most important question, “Do you still think of me?" So, if you’re reading this, I wonder if you agree because it’s always the thought in the back of my head.
I wonder if you still think about me on Christmas (if you celebrate it), on my birthday, or when you’re just laying in bed unable to sleep. You must be curious about me, too. Wondering what I look like or where your little baby ended up after 19 years. Or maybe you’re regretting your decision to let me go, and wish anything to have me back in your arms once more.
Whether you feel curiosity or regret, or maybe a little mix of both, I know you did the right thing. You might protest to this but you’ve done the most unthinkable and selfless thing anyone could’ve ever done. It must’ve cut like a knife to leave your daughter in that train station, knowing that you probably wouldn’t see her again. But you know what's funny? You knew exactly what you were doing. You knew you could not provide me with the tools to be successful there, so you did what you had to. I’m here today to say thank you. Thank you for being so strong and giving me the opportunity to have a better life. I have a roof over my head, parents that love me, and am blessed with countless opportunities. And, after all this time, I get the feeling you still love me too.
I wish you all the best and hope to get the honor of meeting you in another life. At the end of the day, I have two families that both care for and love me so much, and I couldn’t be luckier.
Love,
Your Daughter From Halfway Across The World
