It is quite funny when I look back on our friendship. Isn't it funny how things turn out in this life? We were not even best friends to begin with, we were just friends. We were introduced through a mutual best friend, but it is crazy the way things have turned out. Who would have thought it would be you and me, day in and day out, for the past four years?
Do you ever think about how this started, almost four years ago, right around this time. It was winter, wrestling was in full swing and we were at Tim Horton's... Do I REALLY need to elaborate on the rest? You and I both know how that went. After that day, it was you and I, we became inseparable.
As I sit here and I reflect on our friendship and this bond we have created, I do not think words can begin to express how thankful I am. I feel as though thank you, is not even enough, and it may not ever be enough.
I love our friendship and the times we share together. The hours on end of being together, and not getting tired of each other. The countless trips to taco bell at 3 am. The many, many, MANY early mornings on the bus going to wrestling meets in high school. (Do you remember the one bus ride when we were fighting and I cried? Yeah, not surprising.) All the football Friday nights we spent together. The holidays spent together, I think a good majority of my holidays are now spent with you. Our Thanksgiving tradition of going to Black Friday after our Thanksgiving feast every year. Our mikes hard and smirnoff nights, what a throwback. Our four loko nights, those were scary... Pete's house? Our wine nights. Our trips to the beach, those have been some of the most memorable trips for me in this life, because I have your crazy ass there with me, making the best memories. The late night car rides, belting our heart out to Heartbeat or I Hope, I think any time I hear those songs, I will think of you, until the end of time. The plenty of times I have fallen down the stairs, the abundance of times you have ended up in the bathtub at 3 am. All of the nights we have sat on the floor at the house and eaten our Daruma, but usually only tend to take a couple bites. All of the times we have gone shopping together and spent money we should not be spending, and should be saving for our apartment. All the smiles we have shared, all the laughing until we cry, all the laughing until someone (usually you) pees their pants. All the memories we have shared, hold the most special place in my heart. Thank you for that.
Now, do not get it twisted, our friendship has had its fair share of downs. There have plenty of times we have gone without talking or seeing each other. I look back on those times now, and I could not even imagine talking to you, every hour of every single day. We have had plenty of fights, plenty of words said to each other that I have regretted, plenty of times we have not seen eye to eye. But that is what helps us learn, and grow, what makes us stronger. There have been plenty of days spent together that have not been happy, and have been filled with sadness. You always bring the light into those days. After losing one of our good friends, you were the one who stuck by my side, went through that all with me. The time I spent in a long relationship, and pushed our friendship away, you were still the one there day in and day out, no matter how many times I repeated the same thing to you, no matter how many times you gave me the same advice, it never mattered, you were there for it all. The time I got cheated on and had my heart broken into a million pieces, you were the one I ran to, you were the one who wiped tear after tear after tear, that streamed down my face. You were the one who held me as my world felt like it was crashing down and never going to get better, you were the one who heard all the hate, sadness, anger, you were the one who got me through it all. The time in my life that I got diagnosed with panic disorder and anxiety, you were the one who learned how to help me through those episodes. From being on an airplane and making sure I did not have a panic attack, to driving and being sure I was okay and felt like I was strong enough to do it. Thank you, for going through not only OUR darkest times with me, but MY darkest times with me.
You were right, life will not be like this forever. We can say all we want that we will have kids and live next door to each other, or that we will have kids and run away from the baby daddies and raise them together, but lets be real. Nothing lasts forever, nothing stays the same forever. Change is inevitable in this life, it is truly the one constant in this life, that keeps us going and pushes us to be better, and do better. Remember when I sat in the closet because I was upset that you said we would not always be as close as we are now? Well you were right, no matter how much that sucks to come to terms with or no matter how much it sucks to say... You always tend to be right.
Thank you, for everything. Thank you for being my rock. Thank you for being the person who keeps me sane even while I endure all the crazy this life throws me. Thank you for being my partner in crime, getting in trouble with me growing up and being the one I have made the most stupid decisions with. Thank you for being my soulmate, in best friend form. I know God blessed me with the best one there is in this life. Thank you for being my best friend, day in and day out, no matter what life has thrown our way, you have always been the one cheering me on, on my side and going through this crazy life with me.
I hope one day, when life is different, and things are not the same, and we are married with little mini mes running around the house on Thanksgiving morning, I hope you can look back on this and remember what life was like when we were young, when we were inseparable, before life got in the way of everything.
I hope you know, I will always run to you in this life. Even when things do change, you will always be the one I run to, you will always be the one I call. You will always be the one I need to tell me "God will never give you more than you can handle."
I will always be here. I will always support you. I will always be on your side.
Here is to a new decade of our friendship beginning, just around the corner, this one is going to be good. Trust me, I can feel it.
I love you.