To Every Clay Jensen Out There,
I want to tell you thank you. Thank you for loving her. I know she couldn't say it, and she can't now, but know she felt the same way. I may not have ever attempted what Hannah Baker successfully completed, but I have felt similar feelings. I have felt broken, and shrouded in darkness. I have felt hopeless, and vulnerable, and without any chance of living. But then you showed up.
Thank you for being the one small glimmer of light when all she saw was darkness. Thank you for fighting for her when she couldn't fight for herself. Thank you for loving her, even when she was a victim in the eyes of everyone else. Thank you for seeing her. Thank you for realizing that she was worth it, and that she was a living, breathing person. Thank you for believing her, when no one else did.
I know what it is like to be assaulted. I know what it is like for your soul to be broken. I know what it's like for my life to be a constant reminder of my pain. I know what it's like to feel like a helpless victim. I know what it's like to feel powerless, and lifeless. It's like I'm not even broken. But you see us as human. You see us as living, and healing, and fighting. And you never let us think otherwise. You taught us how to feel again- you taught us that it's okay to be okay.
Please, continue to love us "Hannah Baker's". Yes, we are broken, and yes, we feel hopeless sometimes. But you give us hope. You are heaven-sent. Continue to love us, and please- tell us you love us. Because we need to hear it. We need to be reminded that we are worth it. We need to be reminded that there are good people out there. We need to be held, to be kissed, to be taken care of. We need to feel healthy physical affection, because all we know is the touch of evil.
Please continue to see the good in us. We may be broken, but we have a heart. A HUGE heart. And that heart is capable of so much love and life- we just need to be healed. And we're trying- please, know and recognize that we're trying.
Please continue to show us that there is joy in life. Take us to parties, look at the stars with us, and go on adventures. Show us that life is so much more than just sitting still.
Thank you for not giving up on us. Thank you for loving us, even after everything we went through. Thank you for knowing that we aren't victims. Thank you for seeing the hope in us, and for being the light we need. And, please- don't give up on us. Love us back to life.
Sincerely,
Every Living Hannah Baker
