To be or not to be, has always been an interesting question. In my case, I have adapted it slightly. To be sad or not be sad, that is the question. Last night I had my last fraternity formal for my undergrad career. It is a bittersweet thing because I have put so much time and effort into something and it just be gone in a flash, and that is exactly what happened.

Don’t get me a wrong, I had a great time but still there is a nagging feeling that it is my last one. There is a part of me that wishes I could do it again but there is another part of me that is kind of ready to be done with it. This is where I am very conflicted.

This formal I was a big part of putting it together; I was in charge of setting up the busses and making sure they got there on time. It is very important that people can actually get to the event. So I guess you can say that my job was kind of big deal aside from actually booking the event.

There were two of us that were actually responsible for setting up the event, so we had to make sure we were on our games. And I must say that it was one of the harder things I have ever done.

The event was at a country club right by the college this year and I must say the venue was beautiful. It had a lake and a nice golf course to boot. There was a nice pagoda to take photos and an even nicer open bar. Overall, it was a really good experience.

After leaving formal is where the feels really set in. The bus ride back was full of laughs but still it felt off. Getting back on campus, it set in for real. Everyone went their separate ways, and it was just it. That is what really killed me. Some of us partied but most of us just chilled with their own set of friends, which is just sad. I wish that we did more after formal but there is nothing that I can do now. It is what it is. Moving forward I have another two weeks on campus and I want to spend it with my friends and doing what I want to do.