Marriage.

Almost every girl thought about their wedding day, or what to wear on that special day, growing up. Some of us watched hours and hours of “Say Yes to the Dress” and “Four Weddings” while simultaneously creating a Pinterest board with all the hacks, cool ideas, dresses and venues we could find. Daydreaming about meeting the special guy who just blows your socks off, you know “him”- your prince. But that’s when we were in middle school.

Now as a sophomore about to be junior in college, I see friends and friends of friends getting engaged, married, having babies or all three making those daydreams and Pinterest boards come to life.

And it’s so hard to not have a heart of jealousy. It’s hard to have a heart of patience and even sometimes joy.

They have found their person that God has chosen for them for eternity, I mean who wouldn’t be jealous. They are in such an amazing situation, something I know I want and have wanted for a while.

But I know God has a special time for me. I’ve been dating a guy for a while now and I love him dearly, but I know we aren’t at that stage yet and, might not ever be at that stage, if it’s not God’s plan. Yet when I see another engagement or a bridal shower or bachelorette party, the monster of jealousy rears its head and likes to hang out on my shoulder. It whispers in my ear to rush to things that I am not ready for and that God hasn't prepared me for. And it becomes hard to not want what God doesn’t have in store for me at that time- hard to not look in your neighbor’s bowl and say, “They have that, so why don’t I?”

Every time the monster tries to creep back up I remind myself of this verse-Lamentations 3: 25-26. It says “The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord. This verse is so sweet- sweet because it reassures me that seeking Him before seeking “him” is the best thing I can do right now. My hope- hope of what my future will be and who my love will forever go to- is all in His decision, which calms all voices whispering to me. Being close to God will give you more love, happiness, and joy than any wedding, daydream or Pinterest board ever could. He’s always with you, refreshing your soul and whispering he loves you. He is the ultimate special guy.

So at the end of the day, being in God's plan is the best place to be, don't attempt to rush God's plan because you'll feel frustrated and hurt instead of loved and excited for HIs plan for you.