“Your 20s are your ‘selfish’ years. It’s a decade to immerse yourself in every single thing possible. Be selfish with your time, and all the aspects of you. Travel, explore, love a lot, love a little, and never touch the ground.” –Kyoko Escamilla

I am not a teenager anymore. But I definitely do not feel like an adult either. A lot of things are going through my mind as I reach adulthood, and these are 20 thoughts on the big 2-0:

1. At first, I was super excited. A couple of weeks before actually turning 20, I was already telling everyone I was 20.
2. Usually no one admits to feeling older, but this year is different somehow.
3. I realized I am no longer a kid, actually, not even a teen anymore.
4. I will not add “-teen” to my age anymore, from now on I’ll be adding “-ty.”
5. But then I started realizing I am now in my early twenties. (Gosh, that sounds old.)
6. I have been alive for 20 years. I am literally half of 40. (What?)
7. Still can’t drink though…I have to wait another year to be 21 and reach the drinking age.
8. Then I started thinking perhaps I should learn how to cook more dishes other than pasta. (Or I can still live off of "Seamless." Okay, maybe not.)
9. I started realizing I’ll probably be married and have kids in like 10 years. (Nope, not ready for that.)
10. But I am twenty years old, and I still sleep with a teddy bear.
11. Wait, why am I still single? Am I going to die alone?
12. Do I have to start acting like an adult now?
13. Do I have to take care of my own taxes?
14. Do I have to start working and actually start paying for my own stuff?
15. I have no idea what I’m doing.
16. Okay, let’s just chill for a sec.
17. Everyone says your twenties are going to be some of the best years of your life, and I'm really hoping that's true.
18. I plan to have new experiences.
19. And start saying "yes" to more things.
20. I am just planning to live this decade to the fullest. And the next one, and the one after that.