I can be fearless. I can grab opportunities by the horns and make it all the way to success. I can put my heart out there and speak my mind about something I am passionate for or disagree with. It's never been an issue for me to stand my ground and make people listen. But, as determined as I can be, this world terrifies me.
I've always been a positive thinker. I prefer to look at the glass half full. But I think that the more the world plays games with you, the more reality sets in. You actually see the world for what it is. Although there's a lot of good, there's also a lot of bad. It lurks around and waits for you to become weak so it can devour you. It will consume you and take over your life like you are it's puppet. And in the end, it will be you against yourself.
The bad is hidden behind every failure. It whispers to you to give up and yell defeat. It will make you believe that you aren't good enough and that success is something that doesn't happen to you.
It can also take form of someone we love. It's in the disguise of a "loving" smile and a sweet touch. But then the claw sneaks up and rips your heart out while having it blow up in a blaze.
Your mother, father, husband, wife... Can be taken from you without saying any goodbyes. The life will drain from them and all that will be left are the distant memories of them laughing.
This world is terrifying.
But once the smoke clears, you will be standing. Only if you are strong enough to keep going. You will have become bitter over "the one" who walked out. You will be snippy with people when they ask you simple questions.
You won't try to better yourself or your future because you truly believe you're a failure. Your drive will diminish and you will get in a normal routine. You will be unhappy with your life as others prevail.
The very thought of waking up and doing simple tasks is impossible because the pain from the death is unbearable. The very essence of who you are will vanish and you will become lifeless. Everything will move slower while the world spins faster.
But, your struggles are supposed to mold you, right?
This world is terrifying.
