I'm not going to sit here and say that you didn't hurt me. That in the moment I didn't wish that there was a different outcome, that I didn't think back on every moment, trying to figure out what went wrong. But these are the words that I could never say to you.

I do not know why you hurt me when I gave you the benefit of the doubt countless times. I don't know why you led me on, lied to me, when you only had the worst of intentions. Especially when you knew I had the best. I know I'm not perfect, but I really tried for you. I let down my walls and I let you in, you took advantage of that. I let you see a side of me I don't let everyone see. You convinced me you were worthy of knowing me like that.

I could regret talking to you, I could forget all the experiences and times we had together. But I don't. You showed me that actions speak louder than words, you showed me your true colors.

Sometimes I wonder how you are or where you ended up, sometimes I see something that reminds me of you or something that we shared. I hope you are happy wherever you are. I hope you found someone that was what you were looking for, someone that you held on to long enough to open yourself up to. I hope you found someone that helped you realize what you threw away so many times, but also I hope you realize what you helped me gain.

I realized my worth and I realized my strength. Mostly though, I realized what I deserved and what I wanted. Even though you hurt me, I want to thank you. Thank you for opening up my eyes again, they had been closed for quite a while. I didn't realize how I was allowing myself to be treated, I was even beginning to believe that was how it was supposed to be. That this was normal. You had me tricked into believing you, falling for that smile. I dismissed your countless excuses and fell for your words. By ignoring the signs, I ignored the truth. Thank you for awaking me to this, yet again.

I wish I could say all of this to you but then again I do not wish to spend any more of my time living in the past. So these are my last words to you, I hope she realizes who you are, but what I hope the most is that you aren't that person anymore. I hope you learned from your mistakes and saw how much you hurt people, realized what you were doing. I hope you tell her she's pretty every day and hold her close. I hope you love her and I hope you don't let her get away. I hope that you have found your happiness. And I hope you know that I have found mine.