I'm on the bus, and you're not there. The panic begins to set in, and then the disappointment. I stare out the window in boredom, and I stare at the others on the bus with envy.

I sit down in class, the teacher gives us work time. I realize I am completely alone, and that I don't have you to accompany me, and I sit in a begrudging silence and curse my luck. I get angry for some reason. It's only one day.

I get on the bus again, staring out the window again, wishing I could block at the loud shrieks with your company. I sit, I stare, and I understand what you really mean to me.

I understand that you're my emotional outlet. I can't feel, or experience without you by my side. You are how I how I define the world, you are how I experience it. You are my travel buddy. Not a single trip has been made without you by my side.

I realize how dependent I am. I realize that I can tolerate other people if you are not around me. I realize you strengthen my other relationships, you strengthen my patience, you soothe me in my sadness.

I get super selfish, I believe you are mine and only mine. I believe just because you dragged me out of a dark place, I think you belong to me, and that you owe something to me. I don't realize that you mean something to others too. It makes me angry that you aren't just mine, and that you also belong to the people I especially dislike.

You're special, and it makes me angry sometimes when people don't appreciate you to the fullest, people who think they have you and understand you, but then I realize that I am like that too sometimes.

It's just because you bring me so much joy and happiness. I feel that I can take on the world when you are with me. You inspire me, you give me goals, you fill my head with dreams for the future. You are my escape from the mean, mean world. You make me THINK. I never think more than when I am with you.

You are the words in the wind, the comfort that wraps me like a blanket.

Geez this is what forgetting my headphones does to me.

I love music so much, and it means so so much to me. I thank the artists and wonderful people who bring that to me every day.