To the Woman that gave Birth to me, you and I know both know who you are. In my life and in this article I will not call you mom because you are not and have never been my mom. I’ve had two wonderful loving moms throughout my life and you have not been one of them so therefore you do not get the right to be called ‘mom’. And if you’re reading this, which I doubt you are, you’re probably expecting me to write about how much I hate you. And as much as I would like to think that I’m brave enough and one day tells you my true feelings about how I think and feel about you, I’m not going to do that; instead I’m going to thank you.

I would like to start off by saying thank you for giving birth to me. Without you deciding to do the deed that you did I wouldn’t be here. I’m wouldn’t have gotten the chance to meet all the wonderful people that I’ve gotten to encounter. I wouldn’t get to enjoy this wonderful life that I have. Most importantly thank you for giving me away.

I often think about how my life would be different if you hadn’t given me up for adoption and often times I think about the worst case scenarios. I know that if you would have decided to keep me for yourself that I probably wouldn’t have had the great childhood that I did. I know that I also might not have finished high school and I know that I wouldn’t be able to say that I’m a junior in college.

If you hadn’t of given me up I wouldn’t have been blessed with the loving parents that I have. My parents are some of my best friends even though we bicker all the time, I love them so much; they support me and my dreams and more importantly they accept me for who and what I am. Granted I probably would have still known of them if you had kept me because of the circumstances but I wouldn’t have been as influenced by them as I am today.

With saying all of this I don’t want to make it seem like you were/are this horrible person. Who knows if you would have raised maybe I would have accomplished all of those things like graduating high school? And you might have made sure that I had a great childhood with you too but as a person on the outside of your life looking in I would rather have the life that I have now then what could have been.

Thank you for showing me that even the one person that is supposed to love you the most in the whole wide world doesn’t have to. Thank you because you showed me that love is a choice and not a forced to kind of thing. And I’m not trying to say that you didn’t love me in your own way but you didn’t love me enough, I guess. And thank you for keeping my adoption within the family because of this I would have been totally lost identity wise. I wouldn’t be able to tell people my background and I wouldn’t be able to tell people about where I’m from; which I’m very proud of even if I only know about one side. And thank you for wanting a better life for me.

There are so many things that I can thank you for but I can’t thank you enough for giving me.