To [insert name],

Have you ever met someone who you want to learn every single detail about?

I have. If you haven't figured out already, it's you.

Getting to know you became not really an obsession but a curiosity.

To me, you were like a jig saw puzzle, I was tempted to put all the randomized pieces together to create the bigger picture. And that's exactly what I did.

I learned what keeps you up at night,

I learned what your biggest fears and dreams were,

I learned about your insecurities...

Oh, if only you knew how badly I wanted to tell you how perfect you are just the way you are!

It took all the will power I had to refrain.

Getting to know you, was a temporary escape from my internal prison, my mind.

Instead of laying in bed, alone, at midnight, just thinking aimlessly,

I could now spend that time, fulfilling my never ending hunger of my curiosity of you.

Knowing someone inside and out is most indescribable feeling in the world.

And how would I know?

Because not too long before you came around, I met someone, but they could never compare to you.

But if I'm being completely honest, it didn't end with rainbows and butterflies.

I knew them better than I knew myself.

I spent so much time getting to know them, and I hate that I still know their favorite ice cream flavor or the little things that make them tick and the way I know exactly how to make them smile when they're feeling down.

It becomes infuriating when all these old memories swarm inside your head when all you want to do is forget them.

Forget all the lies and betrayals.

Forget the pain and the heart break.

Forget knowing them.

The worst part of it all is that I can't. There's no magic pill or memory erasing spray that exists in the world. As much as I don't like it, I'm forced to live reality and relive these memories. The only upside is that I am not alone.

And besides, maybe memories are the kind of things that you don’t want to erase. It will always be apart of you and it sticks with you throughout your life. Through our memories we learn. And with our new knowledge and understanding, we can hope to avoid the mistakes we previously made.

I've realized that the universe has a strange way of doing things. It's true that the world still goes on with or without you, but not when you belong to someone else's.

But despite all the trials and tribulations I've endured, I still want to know you.

Having someone who listens to what you have to say,

Who understands you,

Who won't give up on you?

I want that

More than ever.

So maybe getting to know you wouldn't be all that bad after all.

Sincerely,

X____________________________________

XOXO