bloodshot eyes strengthless
not enough power left to blink
eyes red as wine from all of the tears
the bathroom floor has gone completely cold; like you
a nearly lifeless corpse lays there silent
contemplating the future
a bottle of pills clutched in one hand; a phone in the other
call your family your heart pleads out to you
yet you still lay there borderline lifeless
they did this to you after all of the wrapping pinkies together promising
they did this
outside your little bathroom window life goes on for the others
the day is blooming onward as your lay wilting
how can people be okay in a time like this?
how can people be okay when you are not?
but
they do not know you are not okay
blooming onward they cannot sense what lurks in your tiny bathroom
the tiny baby blue bathroom that once smelled of lavender and lilac
now it smells of cheap rum and despair
clutch on to that pill bottle more and more
clutch until you feel as if your hands may seep red with blood
this is the pain of heartbreak
pain you never thought you would experience; pain they promised
pinky after pinky
you would not lay wilting; they would always be there to make sure you bloom
bloom like the yellow sunflower in the black and white movie of a world
but you are now just wilted; dried up
pale skin with purple veins slowly stopping
a pill bottle that has become unclutched and empty
they did this to you; they left
but you did this to yourself; don't do this to yourself
don't leave everything behind
you will miss the smell of the freshly bloomed flowers outside of your tiny home
your grandmother; your savior
you want her to be the one to find you like this; lifeless?
pale skin with stopped purple veins
foaming at the mouth
you do not want this
life is meant for love
life is meant for heartbreak
happiness : pain
it all goes in hand
take the good with the bad please
the pain he is causing to you shall pass; like the abuse of your childhood
it will pass
do not gulp another pill
the bottle lays empty; the purple veins have stopped
no longer pulsating
they rush you to the hospital
pump his stomach
save him they plead; do whatever it takes
another pump; it comes up empty
a still body still lies there
pump it again
two once bloodshot eyes open slightly
no longer bloodshot; but green
green and new
new to this world
a survivor
the bottle may have been swallowed
yet your eyes are renewed
here you are green eyes
a survivor
