I have only been in one relationship. One where there was no trust and happiness, only lies and pain. He kept you crawling back because he made you think that no one else would ever love you like he did. He would get upset when you would say something about another guy, but you were not allowed to get upset when he flirted with a girl, that it was all your fault. It was your fault that you were not enough. He was the victim and you were a horrible person for doing those things to him. You strived to be enough, to put on a pretty smile, to be skinner to do whatever to be enough for him. To him, you were lucky to be with him, to be loved by him and in return you had to do what he wanted, even if you said no. He didn't seem to care when those words were uttered out of your mouth, he did what he wanted. If you were lucky, he would listen to you, but you did not get lucky too often. You felt disgusting and embarrassed. You felt numb. So numb that you would do anything to feel something, and you tried. Eventually you craved the hurt because that was the only thing that let you know you were still alive. He left not only a scar on your heart but scars on your body that will forever be there even if they were not put there by him, he was the cause. And when you finally could not take anymore of this pain, you cut ties completely and he reminded you that you have no friends and how you mean nothing to him. After a year of suffering, you finally have dry eyes, you finally start to feel again, and all your scars are fading away. And a year after ending that relationship, you feel so much stronger and the pain you went through, made you who you are today.