I'm graduating college in almost two months; and instead of being exciting, I'm stressed out. Yes, I'm glad about finally finishing school, but at the moment I have thousands of things I have to get done. And yet, I never seem to have time (or the motivation) to get it done.

Ever since my emotional breakdown in front of my professors (who in the end, made the situation worse), I've lost all sense of motivation to get my work done. Although I get work in on time, it usually takes me longer to get started. And with a twenty-page senior project due by the start of May, it feels like I'll never get it done. I know that my capability to write a lengthy paper, it's all about finding the motivation to start writing.

Whenever someone asks me to explain how I feel about the whole dilemma, I don't know what to say. On the outside, I seem fine. I can easily get up and get my day started. However, on the inside, I feel like I'm in the middle. I'm neither happy or upset. It's as if my schoolwork is underlying stress that puts so much weight on my shoulders. That that amount of pressure will either break me or push me to get my work done quicker.

In the end, I'm trying my best to search for the motivation to productive and do things. Not just in school, but in life in general. Once I graduate college, I have to actually live life. I'll find a job, pay my loans off, and find a place of my own. But I can't get it done if I have little to no motivation whatsoever.

I'm not writing this for people to try to help me out. I just figured that by expressing my emotions will help me feel better about the whole situation. Only time will tell if it'll work out in my favor.