Sadness carries in their veins into their arteries
Pain is the sequence of it all
Drops of tears down their face
The pounding heart that feels betrayed
Tossing and turning at night
That's what happens when the fears come out
Did you see that look?
That's the look of pain
The look of suffering
The look that can never turn back
It is the
Habits of mind
Tricks of the heart
Why can't it all go away they said?
It is only for a while they said
Will they ever feel again?
Will they ever be betrayed again?
If it was love it was meant to be, they said
It's the tingle in their nose
The one that burns when they want to cry
They inhale to hold in the tears and exhale to release the fears
When will it all be normal again?
Maybe it's not meant to be normal, and maybe it's intended to be real
All of it is a figment of their imagination
The lies, the truth, and dreams
All three have something in common
It's all good for a while until reality kicks in
That's when the doubt comes after
That betrayal again
Will it ever stop?
They thought they could rely on you
They thought they could count you
But then again there they are left disappointed by agony and betrayal.
Betrayal, when will they surpass this?
Will they ever get the chance not to be betrayed again?
Their heart feels swollen; it has wounded and unhealed scars from the past
They can't bare with the pain
There it is again
That tingle in their nose
They can't stop thinking about it
It's all they ever think about
They can no longer focus knowing what you did
They begin to reanalyze if it was them
Did they do something?
They feel sorry they couldn't be there that one time you needed them
Think about those times they needed you
It was easy for them
The silence was in their heart
The feelings went numb
The thoughts of you went blank
No matter what you are still their particular person and they will forgive you
And you forgive them
Told from the sadness in their eyes