I graduated high school yesterday. I said one last goodbye to the friends and teachers who I've grown to love and admire over the last thirteen years in my town's school district. And, upon waking up from a rather interesting all-night graduation party this morning, I've had a bit of time to reflect on my feelings regarding beginning this new chapter in my life and I've come to one basic conclusion: it's very possible to feel everything at once, so to speak.

Let me elaborate on this concept further. I've found that, at least in the last month or so, I've felt every emotion possible about graduation and the future. Sometimes, I'd feel two opposite emotions at the same time. And even though that concept goes against what should be deemed appropriate, it makes perfect sense.

Example one: the future. I am so excited for what next year will bring. Between college, internships, studying abroad, making new friends, joining organizations, etc. I am looking forward to starting a new chapter in my life, and I cannot wait to tackle all of the obstacles ahead. But at the same token, this prospect is equally terrifying. It's almost as if the sea of endless possibilities ahead of me is paralyzing. Every second ahead of this very moment is unpredictable. Anything can happen. It is incredible that the future can be so terrifying, yet so beautiful. And so I must push forward, regardless of the circumstances; regardless of a supposed "greater plan."

Example two: leaving high school. I am so glad I don't have to go back and survive another year in high school. But at the same time, I am going to miss the people I grew up with dearly. I am going to miss the teachers who have had such a significant impact on my life and my education. I am so ready to move on, but at the same time, I wish I could freeze time right here, forever.

(Final) example three: friendship. I spent a vast majority of the last four years of my life with a large group of friends, and spent all night with them last night. But I'd be lying if I said I don't feel a bit disconnected from these people. This is not necessarily a bad thing. We are all about to go down very distinct paths and pursue our passions, all while being away from each other and growing accustomed to our new lives. I feel as though this is one of the most memorable times with my friends, but also one of the most confusing.

As with anything in life, this huge milestone can be very complex. But it is important to remember that graduation is a new start. I am exasperated to see what the future holds.