Constantly checking my bank account while trying to earn a life's saving, but to see only $17.89 in my account is so degrading! Surely I've worked more than I've been off this week and even sacrificed some things in the name of saving money, but it comes and goes so you'll need a sense of humor if you're money is acting funny. For it's a man made substance, materialistic in fact like so many other things that don't really matter (you'll learn that) and it's crazy what people will do for these things just to get their pockets fat; things like lie, cheat, manipulate, and maybe even kill. It's 2016 so I can only keep it real and say that even I am feeling the pressures of life and often wonder how others have made it, but a wise coach once told me that if you not feeling confident just fake it! At least until you get to where you're trying to be to maintain, and please don't bash the young ones figuring it out because we are on the same "thang". Learning how to juggle our jobs, our families and our other obligations, but we're starting at the bottom so don't act like you weren't there before you made it. Yeah never would've made it, Marvin Sapp spoke the truth but I'm not relying on a religion because in my heart I can feel the proof.
Please believe me when I say we couldn't have come this far without the father. You got milk and juice in your fridge now when all you had before was just some water! Basically you now have options, and almost too many to count! Now it's time to pick between paying your rent or car insurance because you don't have the full amount. You need a roof over your head but also a way to get to work to make money, might be a little risky but you hear your mom's voice say "pay the rent first you big dummy!" Like what are the chances you'll get pulled over, especially a young black woman like myself? I'd fear for my life just because I didn't have enough wealth while regretting not paying the insurance, only praying the cop will let me go. As an adult you're no longer blind to the hate you know they want to see you bleed slow, or are at least aware that the greed of money and power comes before your life no matter your skin tone, wake up America these are no longer the days of flip phones!
Time has grew on and adult shoes you must now fill but first lace up and get on that treadmill! You're feeling a little heavy, and not in such great shape because you're always on the go with a four for four on your dinner plate but clearly still looking good because later you got a dinner date but why are y'all going on dates if y'all have no potential of jumping the broom? So you call up your friends instead but tonight they're doing them and not you! Busy with their own significant other or maybe even rocking their baby to sleep so instead you watch Netflix and put your life on repeat to wake the next morning another day, another dollar. This "adulting" thing is stressing you but you don't scream and holler. You handle it like the adult you are, keeping your head held high and your heart determined, you now realize that life happens day by day and even as an adult you're still learning! By the time you have it figured out you may even be old, grey and withered but at least you can smile about it because today you're teeth got delivered.
