The Mind of A Girl with an Eating Disorder

The Mind Of A Girl With An Eating Disorder

This was written for my 12th grade English class, my teacher absolutely loved it and I loved writing it, so I thought I would publish it. Inspired by a friend <3


To Recover or Not To Recover, that is the question:

Does she continue down the path that has made her so depressed or does she do what is best for her body?

Who is she really doing this for? Does she do this for herself? Or does she do this for her family?

So many questions, so many emotions running through her head, nothing is clear and nothing makes sense.

Why her? Did she do this to herself? She thought she was in control; She is in control.

Or is she? She doesn't know anymore, what is up, what is down, what is good and what is bad.

Black and White, the lines are blurred. What is healthy and what is not?

She does not know. But does her family know? How does she fix a problem that seems to have no end in sight? It seems as if we cannot undo what had been done within ourselves. But sometimes you can.

Even if she is doing it to make the others in her life content and unbothered by her health, The problem fixes over time, she just needs to make the decision.

To purge, or to become healthy again, to gain the weight back that she worked so hard to lose, to make her ribs invisible to the world instead of sticking her hand under them as if it is a party trick, to be healthy enough to give blood to those who need it, and to get rid of the greenish tint to her face.

She may not be in control of her body, but she is in control of this one choice. Make a choice. Make a change.

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A list Of 15 Inspiring Words That Mean So Much

A single word can mean a lot.

Positivity is so important in life. A lot of times we always go to quotes for empowerment but I have realized that just one word can be just as powerful. Here is a list of inspiring words.

1. Worthy

Realizing your self-worth is important. Self-worth can really make or break a persons personality. Always know that you are worthy of respect. And also, never compare yourself to others.

2. Courage

Be courageous in life. Life has so many opportunities so do not be scared to grasp any opportunity that comes your way. You have the ability to do anything you have your heart and mind set to do, even the things that frighten you.

3. Enough

When you are feeling down and feeling that nothing you do is ever good enough, know that you are more than enough. And yes there is always room for improvement but when it comes to my self-worth I always have to remind myself that I am enough.

4. Blessed

Be thankful. A lot of times we forget how blessed we are. We focus so much on stress and the bad things that are going on in our lives that we tend to forget all of the beautiful things we have in life.

5. Focus

Focus on your goals, focus on positive things, and focus on the ones you love. Do not focus on things that will keep you from not reaching your goals and people that do not have good intentions for your life.

6. Laugh

Laughing is one of the best forms of medicine. Life is truly better with laughter.

7. Warrior

Through the good and the bad you are a warrior. Be strong, soldier.

8. Seek

Seek new things. Allow yourself to grow in life. Do not just be stuck.

9. Faith

During the bad times, no matter the circumstances, have faith that everything will be all right.

10. Live

Start living because life is honestly way too short. Live life the way you want to live. Do not let anyone try to control you.

11. Enjoy

Enjoy everything that life has to offer. Enjoy even the littlest of things because, as I said before, life is short. And plus, there is no time to live life with regrets.

12. Believe

Believe in yourself and never stop. Believing in yourself brings so many blessings and opportunities in your life.

13. Serendipity

A lot of times we look for things to fill an empty void that we have. Usually what we are looking for comes when we are not looking at all. Your serendipity will come.

14. Create

Share your ideas with the world. Creativity brings change to your life. However you chose to use your creativity do not be scared to show your intelligence, talent, and passion.

15. Love

The world is already full of so much hate, so love unconditionally with all your heart.

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I Started My First Full-Time Job Today — Here's What I've Learned So Far

The first day of a 9-5 can bring many surprises and good memories.


So, I started my first full-time job this week. It is an editorial internship with a local paper in the downtown area of my city. It's a regular 9-5, and I am seen as part of the newsroom, not just an intern. This past week has been exhilarating, exhausting and a phenomenal learning experience.

Firstly, the people are amazing. I was super lucky to join a team of people who are not only kind and encouraging, but great at what they do and willing to help. It can make such a difference when adjusting to a new job to be surrounded by people that help you to grow instead of making it more difficult.

Secondly, working all day long is tiring, but there is nothing better than putting your feet up at the end of a long day. Having never worked a full-time job before this summer, you can bet I could barely open my eyes after my first day. You will be tired on a level you never thought possible, and you will need to remember that there is an adjustment period. The good thing is, you adapt pretty fast to your new schedule. Just allow yourself plenty of time to sleep at night, and the adjustment will follow.

Thirdly, it's OK to be a beginner. I think so many interns feel insecurity about the fact that they are not entering their fields as experts, but it's important to remember that you are a beginner and that is fine. You are there to learn and grow in your field, not to be a perfect example of success. You will have lots of questions, and that is OK. You will make mistakes, and that is OK. And every day will be a new chance to grow.

Overall, I'm excited to continue on with my internship. I am excited to finish adjusting and push myself to see what I can achieve this summer. As long as you keep a positive attitude and remember to relax, you will be in for a very rewarding experience.

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