As this year has come to an end, I like to remember the f**kery that happened in 2015. Now, boys and girls...and people that read this, I'm not talking about only the bad, but the good too. Why not, right?
Where the F do I start? How about the start of 2015? I would like to say I started 2015 a little bumpy. I just decided to sleep around. Why? Because it's fun and I'm an adult. But then I realized that it wasn't a good way to take care of the left over baggage I brought in from the previous years. I also moved to New York on a limb and got involved with a much older guy. Hence, the death to a great legacy of the Black Widow (if yah catch my drift). Anyways, the year was already going too fast. I had blue hair, I turned 21, and went into a deep depression. I was still in school full time and had no way of knowing how to cope with stress.
I felt like I was suffocating. I got a job managing a cafe in Brooklyn and started to make some sort of move into a more positive direction, but I wasn't happy. I wanted more. I wanted to have my big girl job like I once had. I wanted to go back to LA. I wanted an adventure. I wanted to break the rules. I wanted him. I wanted to spend without thinking. The Black Widow was on the rise.
After numerous nights of drinking, smoking, partying, and was just going through "that phase" as we like to put it in 2015, I learned that the only way to get help is to help yourself. Is what you're doing right now what you really want out of life?
I made a change. I fought for what I wanted. I worked to hard to fall back into the rabbit hole I once dug myself into. It was time to get rid of the flat line of misfortunes and start living my life.
It's January 17, 2016 - into the new, I have a big girl job, a boyfriend, live in the city and everything seems to be moving. But that's just it; there is so much going on that I miss the simplicity. The bottom line: just as this article is everywhere, so was I. I was a bunch of different stories and situations. You have to appreciate the simple things in order to have them. Where I'm at is comfortable, but I have to keep moving. It's when we're comfortable that we begin to drift.
It's okay to never know, but just keep walking the line until you do know. It's always experiencing with what's happening right now. It's 2016, F**K "new year, new me" bulls**t and start thinking about where you want to be. Everyone is going to judge, but happiness is so much important that thoughts of sheep.
Reach for the damn moon.
Buffy Summers once said, "The hardest thing in this World is to live in it. Be brave. Live."
I love all of you and I'm here for you. Just don't call me at 3 a.m. - I'm sleping and will be super mad.,
Yours,
K
