It’s not easy to explain why I am hurting so much over the loss of a girl I never met. I was sitting in a room with girls who knew and loved her, but when I heard the news it was as if glass shattered. However, when I went to put the glass back together I was missing a part. That missing piece is Jordin. Everyone describes Jordin as a dancing queen. Someone who was never afraid to accept a person and to make them her friend. Someone who was so full of life and vitality that it was impossible to not smile when you were around her.
I feel that if I had met Jordin we would have been very good friends. But, I did’t get to meet her, I didn’t get to have a dance off with her, and I didn’t get to smile because of her. But she was my sister. She was someone I know I could have gone to no matter what. She was someone I know I could have shared my frustrations, my feelings and my dreams with. She was my sister. Now, Jordin is my angel. But, she’s not only mine, she’s my chapter’s. She’s looking out for us and bringing us closer. She’s making us laugh even though all we want to do is cry. Earlier tonight I was walking out of a dinner with my Big and my Twin, the sky was lighting up with the most dazzling flashes of lightning. My big looked up at the sky and said, “Wow, Jordin is really having party up there, she has all these party lights for her dance offs now.”
A couple of weeks later everything has relatively calmed down, I am no longer stared at like a zoo animal when I wear my letters. However, the hurt has't left, there are moments where I know my sisters think or Jordin, and it hurts.They always say that there is a silver lining in every gray cloud, and this dark cloud is no exception. We as a sisterhood have grown so much closer. Whenever I run into a sister on campus we will always smile at each other, and many sisters are trying to get to know every member. If anyone needs a ride home after a long night, or a study buddy, all they have to do is ask and then 4 sisters will respond and be there in a matter of minutes. Losing Jordin showed us how precious our time is together and that we need to not waste a single minute with our sisters.
We will always feel the loss of our amazing sister, but I know that as long as we lean on each other and keep offering support to those hurting we will get through this. Thank you Jordin for reminding us how important our sisterhood is, we will always love you and miss you. My heart and prayers go out to Jordin's family, but I know Jordin is there looking out for them from above.
