We had an amazing 2 years and nine months, but those last 3 months felt like we weren't even together. We no longer had things in common. We fought over small, meaningless things. We barely talked and it was nothing like what we had before. We were both waiting for the other to end it, but it dragged on. We haven't talked since, but we said we would. What really hurt me the most was the months before we were so in love, talking about getting married. Yet here we are so far apart. It sucked ending it, but I had to. There was no joy or chemistry anymore.

I'm glad you found happiness again, but I was so surprised it wasn't even a month later. Tomorrow would have been our 3 year anniversary. I hope that we get to be friends again like we were but I don't see that happening.

When we first started dating I was in a bag place, but you brought me joy. You really helped me. At the end of our relationship you sucked the joy out of me. I had gotten depressed when we talked or was out together. I'm not sure if anyone noticed because I tried to hide it for so long.

We moved onto different things, like you were in college and I was still in high school. We experienced all our first together and that was a big thing for me. Now I have to do it all again. It was so worth it for the short, but not for the long. I miss the knowing I had someone to talk to, but I don't miss the loneliness when you weren't there.

To future me, really get to know someone before you commit to anything. It will save you in the long run.