To The Guy I Can’t Have,

There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t come up with an excuse to just talk to you. Everyday that passes, I want to hear your voice. Your voice makes me feel better when I am down and when I am happy, your voice excites me even more! The way you smile gives me chills and your laugh makes me smile. The way you treat other people makes me respect you even more. You are sweet, smart and caring when most guys I know are just the opposite. There are days when I want to pick up the phone to tell you a random thought or talk to you about my day. When I can’t do that, it really does suck.

You always make me feel safe and protected. Everything I do, I try to do very well so I can impress you. I want you to be proud of me. Your opinion means the world to me. I swear and I know you don’t understand, but I seriously want you there when I pick out new clothes, new running shoes, or pretty much anything else I plan to wear. I have never thought of anyone but myself when it comes to shopping. Now, I look in the men’s section just in case there is something super cool I can get you.

You walked into my life and changed everything. I have never had someone care like you do. Someone that supports me and motivates me the way you do. You notice everything I do, and everything I say. You listen and you try to understand even when you don’t. You have turned my life upside down in the best way possible. I have never known what it means to care about someone so much. So much so that, that I worry about you, I get nervous for you and I don’t want anything in your life to ever hurt you. It may sound weird, but I want to protect you from anyone that may say mean things to you or make you feel bad. You have shared stories with me about the past when people would make fun of you. My heart drops when I hear those stories. I wish I had met you then to be the one person to make you smile. You are good at everything you do, but when you try something new, I worry about you because I don’t want you to feel disappointment if it goes wrong. When you are sick, it breaks my heart because there is nothing I can do for you.

You truly are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I know you don’t believe that but it is true. You are the one person I run to in this crazy world. The one person in this world, that I wish I had. I have met some people recently along the way but when I look at them, I only wish they were you. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t wish you would change your mind, that maybe you would come after me. Sounds like a movie right? I have always loved those kinds of movies but they don’t happen in real life. Real life is full of heartache, unfairness, and its full share of pain.

I hope when you look back that you don’t regret ever meeting me. I hope that even through all of the drama I have put on you for being hurt, that you will look back and see just how much this girl loved you!