I've always vibed well when hanging out with guys. I can talk sports, I don't act clueless, and I am just real and down to earth. But, one thing I am not good at is admitting feelings.

Some friendships have blossomed from talking baseball to sending flirty text messages, then I shut down. My mind sets a red, "denied" label over those feelings. I then proceed to get jealous and isolate myself when that person gains feelings for another person, who isn't me.

The reason why I am writing this is not to emotionally vent to the internet nor to call out the person who inspired this. It is an olive branch, to people who have been in this situation and to share you are far from alone.

Being in the friendzone truly does suck, it's an abyss of confusion and awkward conversation because you are unsure whether to push the boundaries of friendship or not. Denying feelings is just a constant state of "It's fine, I'm fine, everything's fine" when it sure as heck isn't "fine". I have always been afraid that once a relationship will get past the 'friendzone' I will be the one to mess it up and never forgive myself for it.

But one thing that has changed this is confidence, though we all struggle with it. Confidence is a daily struggle for me, but I am confident that it is okay to be in the friendzone and the right person for me will want to move past the abyss. Good things happen when you least expect it, and I have learned a negative attitude is not the way to go about it.

Never blame yourself for the mistakes you have made in the past that you can't go back and re-do.