Dear friend, or the one who I thought was a friend...
Thank you. I realize that the rough times you put me through, and the endless amounts of support I gave in return made me a stronger and wiser person. Quite honestly because of my experiences with your so-called "friendship" I've learned how to be a true friend.
Honestly, I don't think that people leave friendships behind on purpose, at least most of the time. I know that we all grow up and our taste in friends changes. I try to be optimistic and just think that I gained so many amazing friends. However, there is a small part of me that has a hard time believing that people can just leave a friendship, and I'm talking an old friendship with a ton of effort put in on both sides, behind.
There were countless hours spent talking at any time of the day, but it's the late night calls and texts that really stick with me. Hours and hours of endless support when you needed some moral support. Granted when I needed support you were there, sometimes, but as popularity got more and more important, you were there less and less.
Even after you became more involved in certain crowds, I still saw you almost every day. Although it was clear that most of the time you didn't see me. It's like I was a long-forgotten ghost that belonged solely in the past. Once in awhile, I would get a nod or a small smile from you as I passed you in the hallway. Every time that happened, I couldn't help but wonder what it would have been like if we were still friends.
I know that I should have confronted you face-to-face, but I was a timid and very nervous person.Truthfully I still am a pretty quiet person, which means that I still have a bit of a hard time speaking my mind. I can't count the number of friends and family that told me I should actually go and tell you off for how you treated me. Think of this as a combination of a way to reach closure for me, and a way to get a message out. This is the past and I just want to be able to move on. Everyone needs to know that it's okay to feel confused and maybe a little abandoned.
People are going to change, it's inevitable. Sometimes we grow out of friendships that we thought would last forever and some of us will try our hardest to keep the friendship running.
People are going to come in and out of our lives, and to be quite frank, I firmly believe that it all happens for a reason. I had a friend that I met in my first semester of college. He was pretty much my saving grace that semester. I had a really rough time in my first semester and meeting this friend made me feel so much better. I could talk to him about pretty much anything and we had a lot of similar interests. I know that he came into my life because I was having such a hard time and I needed someone I could talk to.
Not to mention I met some of the amazing friends after you moved on. I know that the people I have become friends with will be there if I need support. And of course, it's always an adventure when all of us get together.
So take my advice. If you feel that a friend moved on and left you behind, it's okay to feel confused and hurt. Grow stronger from that experience. You can move on, and you never know who you might meet and how important that person might become in your life.
