Have you ever been scared to ask someone on a simple date because you're not sure how they feel about you or you are afraid of ruining the friendship that you two already have?
I think we've all been afraid at one point to confess to someone or ask them to get dinner with you, but the thought of never knowing what their reaction is to your confession is what keeps you going to the day you tell them that you've liked them since forever. It's a weird feeling knowing that the person on your mind all day can be talking with someone else. Sometimes, you even rehearse in the shower what you want to say to them. You love everything about them. The smile that shines out from a crowd, the eyes that can stare deep into your soul and put you in a trance, the personality that gives off a warm feeling in your heart, and even their laugh that can ease your long dreadful day.
Have you also ever listened to songs that just remind you about every single thing about them or put you in your feelings? I was listening to Jhene Aiko earlier and her songs put me in a certain mood that you imagine what it would be like if you were with the person you absolutely adore and want to be in a relationship with. You think about hugging them. You think about holding their hand. You think about kissing them. You think about holding them and telling them how much you adore them.
It's a very scary feeling to go up to them and ask them out on a simple date. Your heart is racing, your palms are sweaty, your throat is dry, your face is red, and you stutter trying to find the right words to say. The words, "yes" and "no" can make you think so much. It's also hard to know when the timing is right. If you wait too long, they might be taken by someone else, or they love the long friendship that you two have and don't want to ruin it. If you try to move too quickly, they might not feel the same way about you because they just met you.
If you decide to ask them out, then you've mustered up the courage to get to the bottom of your feelings and theirs.
If they say the words "yes" to a date, then you are in the clear and you get to test the waters with the person that you've had a crush on for a long time. You get to understand the context clues that the person you are so interested in is interested back. You gain those high hopes that it is going to work out and that you two will be together. You get ecstatic when you hear that word and just want to leap with joy and just scream "Yes! I did it!". Your emotions are running wild and you're so relieved that the emotions and feelings you have bottled in, are now out on the table and they feel the same way. The scenarios of hugging them, holding their hand, and even kissing them are closer to reality. Even as dates progress, you get to see them all dressed up as they put their effort in to see you and look their best for you instead of their usual school clothes.
If they say the words "no" to a date, then you're in a world full of deep emotions and things might get awkward. Remember when you used to text all the time and hang out a lot? Maybe when the words "no" is said, then the texts get less, you two hang out less, and you're just in your room instead listening to Drake. You wonder all the reasons why they said no and you replay that moment over and over again. Some might regret saying something in the first place and some might just be relieved that at least they got their feelings out. Things might never be the same. You hear those words and you just want to burst out into tears. Your throat gets itchy, your feet are trembling, your heart is pounding, and you think that you've just embarrassed yourself for asking them out. You want to punch a wall, you want to just sleep it off, you want to put your headphones in and dwell in your emotions. You just want to shut the world out even though that person is still on your mind.
Both ways lead to a different outcome. However, you will never know which option the person you like will say. It's scary. A quick five minutes to ask them out can turn into five hours or a quick five minutes can turn into bundles of joy. So, will you ask them out on a date or will you hold your feelings in and let time pass by?
And to the girl that I like: I hope that I can one day, muster up the courage to ask you out on a date before we graduate college together in May.
