"In a blink of an eye,
Everything changed.
Sanity disappeared,
And some people's lives were rearranged.
Eyes filled with tears,
And hearts filled with sorrow,
Knowing that he wouldn't be back tomorrow.
Guiltiness rushes within you,
"What could I have said?
What could I have done?"
But darling, you didn't know the issue.
He decided to be gone, and no you did not do anything wrong,
He fought the battle for too long,
The demons overpowered so he decided to run.
Run away from his problems and fears, leaving everyone in tears.
But as he was running,
He gained some wings,
And flew up to the sky.
To see all the nice, pretty things.
Maybe he didn't get to say goodbye, but darling, his new life is just about to begin!
But don't you worry you'll see him again...." –– Marialy Ayala
Suicide can and will rip a family apart. When you receive that phone call you believe you're in a bad dream with your world crashing down around you. You thought something like this would never happen in your family. The calls, texts, posts on social media will only make it that much more real. You don't understand why and how this happened, all you know is that it did and you watch it slowly break your family down.
You will feel sorrow, anger, betrayal, sadness all wrapped up into one big emotion that you can't even explain. You feel as if you can't talk to anyone about this because they won't understand, but the truth is the people standing around you feel the same. Your family are the people who are feeling this turmoil just as much as you are. Talk to them. Do not bottle up your emotions for a day when you let it all out at one time, it will only put a huge burden on you. Once you and your family start talking to one another you will realize that it's the best therapy, it will raise a heavy load from your shoulders.
Soon the questions will start flowing through everyone's heads. "Why did this happen?" "What could I have done?" "Why did they not ask for help?" "What if..." The questions will haunt you and will arise every time you think of the person you just lost, Don't let them attack you. You didn't know what was happening, you had no idea they were going through such a hard time in this world.
You and your family will live with the memories of them. You will smile and laugh often remembering certain stories. Although, your heart will sometimes hurt when you see, touch, smell, hear, or remember something that reminds you so much of that person. Be careful not to go down the dark path and remain there. That person would not want you to put yourself through hell, they would want you to move on, learn to smile again without the sadness in your eyes. Give yourself a week or two but that person would not want you to dwell on their departure from this world, they are free now. They are free from their pain, suffering, crippling depression. Yes this passing is a sad one and it will hurt you, but just keep looking forward and try to remember when you need them they will be there, in your heart and soul.
To those thinking about suicide, please think first. Yes darling you may be going through a rough time but please don't end your life becuase of it. Once you hit rock bottom you can only go up from there yes it's going to a damn hard drag on an upward slope but you will make it back up. Talk to someone if needed, tell them what is going on. People in your life need you around, you never know whose day you could brighten just by smiling. Once you are gone who will brighten their day? Who will call your parents just to aggregate them? Who will stand up for your siblings the way you do? Don't miss out on things becuase you want your problems to end, it'll get better, I promise darling.
If you do know something is happening in someone's life please help them. Suicide is not the way to solve anything. Be the brave one in that persons hour of need. Talk to someone in your community or call the suicide prevention hotline at 18002738255. Save a life today so another family does not have to go through this gut wrenching disaster tomorrow..
