The Day I Lost The Love Of My Life

The Day I Lost The Love Of My Life

(kinda serious, but not actually)

On a Monday morning in late November, I woke up at 6:45 AM already not feeling my best to begin with.

It was the first day back from Thanksgiving break, a Monday (which by itself is awful) and it was WAY too early to be awake. That week I had two exams, two projects, one semi-formal (that I still hadn't found a dress for) and a tax return that was due that day. I had to meet a friend at the library before my first class that morning, preparing for one of the busiest weeks ahead of me. So, like I said, I basically woke up in a bad mood.

Most days, my alarm goes off like 10 times before I slowly decide to wake up. I usually reach for my phone to shut it off and lay there for a few minutes looking at social media or any notifications I have. That Monday morning the first post I came across was about him.

He had been dating this girl for about a year and a half. I'd been lowkey keeping up what he's been doing and how their relationship has been going. It wasn't in an obsessive way, but he'd come across my screen every once in awhile and I'd just do some light stalking. He's had other girls in the past, so it didn't bother me seeing pictures of them or hearing small rumors. But, I had never thought that his newest relationship was so serious...

So, when I saw the post on my Instagram feed, my heart dropped and so did my jaw. ENGAGED. Prince Harry was engaged to Meghan Markle. It was over. My chance had slipped through my fingers and onto her perfectly manicured left hand in the form of a GORGEOUS ring.

All my dreams of joining the royal family and having my own royal wedding was gone. I was devastated. I would never hold a royal title while married to Prince Harry (*SWOON*). He was everything I have ever wanted: strong, handsome (wow), slight rebel, but a kind heart following his mother's footsteps of charity.

No, we've never met. No, he doesn't know who I am. But, those are just minor details that could have been resolved. I was planning a trip to Europe after I graduated this year, but now it's too late.

But in all seriousness, every girl has their celebrity crush and he was mine, not the actual love of my life. (lol I'm not crazy). Meghan Markle is the luckiest girl in the world as far as I'm concerned and I'm actually rooting for them. They are SO cute together and seem to really be happy. Meghan is so talented and beautiful, so I could never hate her for marrying the man of my dreams.

Rumor has it that the wedding will happen this coming Spring and you better believe I'll be up at the crack of dawn to watch the whole entire thing. Harry may be Prince of Wales, but he's not MY Prince Charming. However, I can still mourn the fact that he's out of the running now (*crying*). I'm fine, it's fine.

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Ladies, This You're Dating Jerks Because You Don't Know Your Worth

I have fallen down the same path of finding a guy who would rather text one-word responses than get to know me.

Attention all female sub-tweeters, broken heart club members, and everyone in between. As a fellow woman, I feel it is my obligation to give you the honest truth about our current relationship climate.

I know that most of you can tell me a story about a time a guy "ghosted" you, or played you like a fiddle before moving on to the next girl. I know that you have saved text messages from guys who turned out to be complete jerks when you thought they were the sweetest man alive.

We've suffered through many miscommunications and bad dates for the truth, so it is time for me to give you the non-sugarcoated truth about dating. You don't know your worth... that's the secret to your failed attempts at dating.

Guys and girls alike are tricky when it comes to dating, but why do you settle for a guy who doesn't want to return your messages, or wants to see another girl on the side?

Why do you want the guy who only Snapchats you and can barely carry a conversation with you in person? Why do you want the guy who would rather see your nude photos than one of you smiling?

See my point? I am not being hypocritical here, trust me. I have fallen down the same path of finding a guy who would rather text one-word responses than get to know me, but we are worth so much more.

You are worth flowers and good dates. You are worth thousands of smiling pictures and hand holding. You deserve a guy that is good to your family and also treats you like a princess.

When you start seeing that worth, relationships will change. You start finding guys with goals, morals, and immense love for you.You start giving yourself the benefit of the doubt and forgiving yourself for more things.

Dating will get better when you realize what you deserve. Take it from me. I was stuck in an emotionally abusive relationship where I thought I deserved that love. Now, I am head over heels for a man who chooses me and chooses to propel me towards my dreams.

It will change. You are worth the world. Don't forget that.

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Part Four: The Week of Love and Not So Bad Embarassment

As Week 4: The Week of Love comes to a close I have learned a couple things.

1. When you don't have a partner to share your love with you always have your girls to back you up

2. If fail to succeed, try try, and try again

Those are the two main goals I have learned this week.

I went into this week thinking I would be super depressed seeing a bunch of couplely things and what not but in actuality, I didn't. I saw very few of it. This left a pondering question in my head. Was being single the new norm? After all these years of PDA smothered in our faces was being alone and embracing our lonesomeness finally the move?

I;m not saying I was happy to see a lot of single people alone but it was comforting to know and understand that hey you aren't the only one.

If anything this week I have felt super happy. My friends have given me enormous amounts of laughter and enjoyment. Especially through my embarrassment.

So this week a set out to see Bubbalicious boy again and advance our un-official relationship. I had everything scripted out in my head and a backup backup plan in stone in case things went sour. I also had my girl with me to help me out.

Let me just say that social anxiety is a pain in the butt. While walking up to see said guy my friend coached me through it all. However once I physically stood in front of said guy I froze and panicked. I was completely disappointed in myself.

My friend ended up doing all the talking for me and instead of her being just the friend that was there, I ended up being the friend that was just there.

Thank God for the atmosphere being noisy because at least he couldn't hear the inaudible noises I was making because I was so nervous.

Later I saw him again outside, well my friend saw him. She urged me to wave but a thought it would be weird especially if he wasn't looking but the friends surrounding him happened to look. Unfortunately he did end up looking and I'm pretty sure all he saw was me scurrying away but at least my friend got to make the eye contact for me So hypothetically the eye contact was for me. Which means I'm the rose sooooo technically that means we are the rose. Yeah, for sure.

Long story short I blew that opportunity but on the bright side he followed my finsta that has no recollection that it is actually me.

So i.e. a win win situation.

But in a nutshell Week 4 left some good memories and laughable moments that my friends are going to hang over my head forever and also experience. Crushes will forever be the death of people but hey you always need a good laugh and baby steps. Plus as a reward to myself I'm going to see Black Panther.

Two times the charm am I right?

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