Well, presently I am an eighteen-year-old woman who still finds it strange to consider herself a woman. I work a job that is already opening up the potential for me to be a manager. I also work for Odyssey an international writing organization. As well as being in the process of breaking into my modeling and acting career. I have a feeling that I am going to make progress and move forward fast in all of these ventures; so, what about a love life? In addition to three jobs, I am a part time college student studying communications and business management at Georgia State University. So now I have to coordinate a schedule that is very full between school, three jobs, spending time with my mom and friends (who also have jobs), and maintaining an apartment which doesn't clean itself someone has to clean it!
The question isn't so much can I have both the guy and the careers, it is more so, do I have time for a special someone? Between trying to balance all the hats I already have and then adding a guy into the mix, I would have almost no downtime. The real question is do I really want to add a man into the mix? Do I have the time? Some may be wondering what got me thinking about all this anyways, I'm just an eighteen-year-old kid. But that is just it, I'm eighteen and young, everyone is saying either, "Go for the career and don't worry about boys," or "You should focus on finding someone to spend your life with, don't get consumed with work." Who do I listen to? Myself. I'm about to turn nineteen, just a taste of the adult life. I have plenty of time and I am actually quite happy to be single. Again the question changes, "Do I, me, myself, want and care to have both?" Of course, I do! I want the boy, house, journalist job, management job, modeling job, acting job, family time, school, friend time, and personal time. But for now , I'm going to live in the moment and peer out the window into all that life has to offer.
For now, even though I have days where I want to have the guy and everything else, I think I am content to wait. In time the guy will come, who knows, maybe it will be someone I have wanted all along. And when he does come, maybe my life will have slowed down enough for him to have me all to himself. But if I am honest I don't see my life ever slowing down. So whoever you are, my forever man, I hope you can keep up. Hold me accountable, love me, encourage me, remind me to have some me time. And you don't know it yet but I will love you with everything I have in me. I plan to have both, the job and the boy. But my plans may not mirror the normal reflection that so many others lives may, I don’t think I have to choose between the two. I trust that, when the time comes, I will be able to have it all just not all at once.
