Being a victim of sexual assault is something that I never hoped for. I don't think anyone hoped for it.

When I came to college, I was expecting to have a fresh start to everything. The past would be closed and I could focus on myself. I was excited about the new environment, the dorm life, new friends and being independent. For the first three days, I fulfilled this new excitement to the maximum. It wasn’t until the fourth day that it was all taken away from me. I didn't know that by the fourth day of college that all of this new excitement would drain completely out of me.

I felt like the school had no sympathy towards me whatsoever. I was forced to change my course schedule, not him. I was put into a higher chemistry course, that made absolutely no sense to me. I was switched to online biology, which I had no self-motivation for. I had to make my schedule change so that I wouldn't encounter you. The dreams and goals I had to become a veterinarian flew straight out the window because of this switch.

During the first semester of college, I was dedicated to achieve and succeed to meet my dreams and goals. But when you took advantage of me, it replayed in my mind constantly. Day after day it was a struggle. It was a struggle to keep up with my classes. It was a struggle to get my work done when I was constantly being haunted by you.

I failed two of my core courses. I had to drop out of my dream program and had to find something else to aspire. I got put on an academic probation and had to switch my advisor. I had to tell my "story" to every professor and staff member that encountered with me about my academics.

I had to pay a lawyer to represent me. Further yet, I had to sit on the stand for almost 6 full hours just for you to tell your lawyer that you didn't want to testify anymore. Two days later you were expelled from the University. But I don't think that changed your mind set or who your "friends" think you are. You didn't want to testify because you knew the truth. You knew what you did to me. You just didn't want to admit it to the judge or anyone in that court room.

My life has been a struggle everyday ever since you did this to me. I definitely am not the same person that I used to be. I lost myself because of you. My depression and anxiety were already there from my past, but now because of this, it has increased. You also gave me PTSD, which causes me to stay up until two in the morning crying. Every single night. For the past 8 months since this occurred.

When people ask me how college is going, I don't know what to tell them. My parents won't let me tell anyone else in my family. I feel as if they are ashamed for what happened to me. I feel as if they want to pretend that I am still their perfect daughter who doesn't let anyone take anything from me. Guess what. You took who I was away from me and gave me misery. You changed who I am and I will never be the same because of you.