It's been a while, fours or five years to be exact. But i wanted to write this because me fangirling over your band was a great and weird time of life. I did not know when i started listing to your music that i would fall in love with it. I didn't know that i would basically tweet,, instagram and Facebook post my way to being "the number one fan." These were not things that came to my mind when i tweeted at you guys for the first time. I just thought hey i want to be noticed by a band i love so much.
You guys were my first concert that i got to by myself. I still remember my dad dropping me off and meeting with my friend from school. Then standing in the back because i didn't know at the time that if i wanted a good spot i had to get to a concert early.Then i was there singing your songs, dancing around and just smiling. To top it all off i got meet three out of the four of you and that was everything to me at the time. I never thought i would be able to meet the people who i admire so much for their music yet there i was meeting most of them.
A month later they had EP come out in Walmart and i tried my best to get it but it was no were to be found. I was so sad especially because one of the band members was doing dare videos picked by the fans who got the EP. I still sent an email anyways and mine got picked. When that happen he called me their number one fan and i was on could nine. I was the number 1 fan of a band? How could that be? I just thought i was regular fangirl, but with this band everything was different i wanted to be noticed, i wanted them to like me and i guess succeeded on that part.
After they called me their number 1 fan, i made sure to try to go to all the concerts near me. To all the meet and greats and something magical happened. I would go meet greets and they would look for me in the lines and wave at me, i would smile and wave back. Then when i got to to the front we would talk for a little bit and those moments for me are the ones i hold on to.
Then this band broke up, they made two separate bands and i was crushed. I still remember that day. I came home from my friend's birthday party and i went on the computer and i had a bunch of messages from all the friends i made in the fandom saying: " Sarah did you see what happened?", " Sarah get on, we need talk about this!" Of course when saw this i was like what is going on and then i saw. That message that long Facebook post from them saying the band was going it's different ways. The band of four was now two different bands, split in the middle. My whole world caved in that day. Once i got over the shock of them not being one band i was open to listing to both.
I ended up loving both bands and going to both of their concerts. Always being there to sing my heart out and dance around. I even got my friends to listen to their music and i would go with them to the concerts and those are some favorite high school memories. We love going and meeting the bands and just having a great time.
During the time of the two different bands, i like to think i kept up my number 1 fan status with at least one of the bands but because of that some of the fans did not like me. I kind understood why they didn't, i was there management would come from backstage and bring me backstage to meet the band. If i was other person watching this i would be mad to. It's hard staying number 1 fan and trying to be friends with everyone in the fandom.
I just want say thank you for the three bands i fell in love with. I still listen to your music sometimes and just smile. This is part of my life where i look back at and go " Wow i can't believe i was actually like this," but then i smile and remember how grateful i am to these people. They were there for me in my darkest days especially the first four. So thank you for everything, thank you for the laughs, the friendships i was able to make, the songs, the fans who didn't like me so much, and lastly for making music. Even though your broken up now and have been for a while thank you for putting music out there when you did.
