In Middle School, it was pre-algebra, in high school, it was pre-ap Chem, physics, and AP Calc. Right now, it's Anatomy and Physiology. It's the first time in my life when it's not a math or math-based class that's the bane of my existence.
In high school, I was an obnoxious over achiever (hindsight allows me to make this accurate self-assessment). That's not to say that I magically did well in classes because, as my mother can attest, I spent many a late night crying at the dinner table, but I knew that, if I worked my absolute hardest, it would generally work out in my favor. Coming to college, boy was I in for a surprise. Now, I wasn't stupid. I knew that it was going to be more difficult, but I didn't realize how futile my hard work would seem at times. I did well enough my freshman year, but it has been a class this year with which I have met my match. Cue the tear-inducing existence of Anatomy and Physiology.
It's a year-long class, and first semester was a mess in and of itself, but I managed to survive. BUT, second semester has been a whole new level of gross. For two tests, I have sequestered myself into a quiet corner of the library to study, yet it hasn't panned out the way I've hoped. Given that I'm pre-med(OTD), A&P is arguably one of the most important pre-requisites I will take, so the additional importance is not lost upon me. It kills me that, no matter how hard I work, I'm barely getting by. I just keep oscillating between so gosh darn frustrated and bursting into tears.
All of my grumbling aside, I will now say what I came to say. Don't let that one class get you down. It's just a drop in the ocean of life, and, at the end of the day, your grade in one class will not determine the path of your future. I know you're hearing this from everyone and their uncle at this point, but now you get to hear it from someone who is going through the same thing that you are. Are there times when I don't even take my own advice? Yes. But the fact remains that there is little to nothing you can do at times.
We all have those spiral moments of, "Oh my gosh, I failed this test, I'm going to fail this class, I'm not going to graduate, I'm never going to get a job... etc" Obviously, when you've calmed down, this seems silly, but there is that brief time where that's genuinely the thought process. Take one heck of a deep breath then move on. Easier said than done, I know, but, once the test is over, once the class has ended, there's nothing you can to by falling into that pit. Shake it off a bit, arrange to see your teacher, and keep pushing forward as best you can. You've got this friend! Almost to the end <3
