This is quite honestly the sincerest "thank you" I have ever said. It may sound sarcastic or cynical, but it is far from that. There are so many things I have to say thank you for.

Thank you for being the person that you were.

Before everything changed, you were the best kind of person. You were always there for me in a drop of a hat, no matter what time or what situation. You truly lifted my spirits, and every time I spoke to you, I felt hopeful about whatever I had going on in my life. It was really nice always having someone in my corner, and I always had a feeling I wasn’t alone. For the time that was spent, thank you for making me feel like the best version of myself. When I was around you, the way you made me feel had me on top of my little world. It was something you only experience once in a while, and I still owe you a thousand thanks for that.

Thank you for teaching me loss.

I’ve felt my fair share of loss a lot before, but it was nothing like it was when I lost you. There’s something different about it when you lose two people, the one you used to be and the one you are now. When you walked away, I learned the loss of trust too. It’s a little ironic when you lose someone who said they would always be there for you, and that I could always trust you. But in doing this, you taught me to not give my trust around to just anyone, and words have little meaning next to actions.

Thank you for changing.

And that’s possibly something both you and I would never have thought. You broke me when you changed. I woke up one day and nothing was the same. You ran away from my corner, to a whole other side of the box. I fell off the top of my world, and I lost you. I felt myself fighting for someone who was waving the white flag to me. It took a long time for me to realize that this was all going to make sense to me one day. Because you changed-- I changed. And while you may have not changed for the better, I did. I may have lost you, but I found pieces of myself. Those pieces have helped me write these words, have the strength to forgive you, and have the courage to finally say "thank you."