The farther away you get from something, the more of it you start to see. It can be in distance or in time. When it comes to people, it usually takes some time to start seeing the whole picture of what God was doing in that particular relationship or in this case, lack of relationship.

Most of us have had that one person that we were very attracted to or drawn to. But some of us have also experienced this: not everyone you are into will reciprocate that attraction and interest. It draws out insecurities, shame and desperation that some of us never thought we had. As time passes and we get further away from those types of situations, we can start to see the image more clearly. We can start to see that maybe that what we wanted was not what we needed. Here is my letter to the person who never wanted me back...

I remember it pretty well. Telling you how amazing I thought you were. Complimenting you anytime I could, spending time and money on you hoping that it would prove my worth, but with no avail. I used to feel so bad about myself because you rejected every advancement, gift or word that I spent so much of my time and energy formulating. I felt like there was something wrong with me. I felt like maybe I just wasn’t good enough, but now it is all clear. Time has given me a greater image of what was going on. Thank God for time, and thank God for His imparted wisdom.

Now I can say, thank you.

Thank you for not stroking my ego. Thank you for not giving into my hormone driven, insecurity soaked advancements. I invented a world in my head that made you necessary, but you did not want to be a part of that world, and I thank you for that. Thank you for the blunt honest words you spoke to me. Thank you for telling me the truth: that you did not want me back.

Yes, it hurt, but now I see why It needed to happen. God has way better plans for me. God has plans for me to be fulfilled in him, not someone else, let alone someone who doesn’t care about me. He cares, He loves and He wants my attention and worship. You did not want it, and honestly, you did not deserve it.

So thank you for being honest and for turning me down time after time. I don’t know if you thought God was leading you elsewhere, or if you honestly couldn't stand me, but what I do know is that I am glad that you turned me down. I am glad because now I see that God closes doors for us. Sometimes they are the doors that we think we want so badly. His path for us is perfect, and it is sometimes the path that we don’t recognize or want. I am thankful to you, heart-breaker, because whether you knew it or not, God was shutting a door that leads to a path that I thought I needed. A path that I know see lead to nowhere. The perfect Will of God has me going through another door, to another path, with someone else. Someone who He has incorporated into His plan that will partner with me on the right path, to bring God glory.

So no hard feelings. God has someone better out there for both of us, it just took me a while to see that.