From the day you found out you were pregnant with me, you were beyond excited to become a mom. I remember you told me that when you found out, you told god if everything went right and you were able to have at least one child that you would give me the world, and you did everything you could to do just that.
As I was growing up next to my cousin, who you watched daily, you taught us everything. You taught us manners, how to play with others, what was right and what wrong in your eyes. I remember that you were always 100% involved in absolutely everything I did. When I was a cheerleader you became the cheerleading coordinator. In elementary school, you were a part of the PTA and also volunteered to do lunch and recess duty. All my years of softball you stepped up to take charge of the concession stands. You fortunate enough to be a staying home mom and provided the absolute best care for me.
You showed me how involved a parent should be in their child's life. You showed god that you appreciated that you were able to have a child. You loved me unconditionally. No matter what happened or what I did, you were always on my side. Even when I was wrong, you would tell me, but also help me fix whatever it was that happened. From the time I was little you helped me through every step of my life and it has made me the independent person I am today.
You were the go-to person in my life. Whenever something went wrong you are the first person I want to talk to. Whenever I just want to talk about how annoyed I was with so and so, you were the first person to call. I could vent to you about anything because you’re my mom and I know you wouldn't go tell anyone what I said. The only person I could call balling my eyes out and know that you would make it better and calm me down.
Now you’re gone and I don’t get to call you every day. I don’t get your advice anymore, I don’t get to see your smiling face when I come home. Some days it is a little more than I can bare, but I know you're in a better place. Because of the life you gave me, I am able to consider myself an independent female. I look back now and think to myself that I don't want to be a mother if I can't do the things you did for me. From all that you taught me and all that you showed me, I promise to make you proud. I promise to use and cherish everything you taught me, because the memories I have with you are the ones I want to make with my daughter one day.
Even though you are gone I promise to live through you in your ways, your love and spirit. Thank you for everything you taught me in just a short 21 years.
I love and miss you so much.
