Thank you.

Thank you for teaching me not to trust people easily.

You were my person. You were supposed to be there through thick and thin.

The funny thing is, I actually believed that we would be best friends forever. The friends everyone talks about and says, "wow, they're still friends," but that's over.

You decided that I wasn't good enough anymore. Like I was disposable. It took me a long time to realize that I am good enough. That I deserve genuine friendships.

It wasn't my fault that you decided to go behind my back and let go of our friendship; like we hadn't just spent the past 2 years of our lives by each other's side. Friendship isn't something you just throw away because you found "better" friends. I wish I could understand why you believed I wasn't good enough, but I can't.

Even though I can't understand your reasoning for why you decided to bail on our friendship, I decided to forgive. I forgive you for leaving and turning your back. We both weren't perfect people, and I do miss you.

However, God always has something better in store. God has a plan for our lives, and maybe it didn't involve being in each others.

It's going to take a long time for me to think someone else could be as close to me as you were and not leave. Every friendship I have, from this day forward, will have walls built up, and I will always refer to you as "the best friend that left."

I will always have to explain what happened to us to the new friendships I make when they look on my social media and see your face in every other picture.

It will always hurt. Having to pretend that I didn't share every piece of my life with you.. hurts. Saying "hey how are you?" as if we were strangers.. hurts.

But I will be okay. I will live, and find friends that remind me what it's like to have real friends.

Real friends are out there. Your friends that will end up being your bridesmaids in your wedding, the ones that you will celebrate with on any and every occasion with. You may not find them in a day, a week, or even for months. And you might even be fooled now and again on who your true friends really are, but until then, pray. Pray that you find your people. Pray, pray, pray. Because the one thing I will always believe is God is good all the time and all the time God is good.